If you have messaged me as some have (thank you), I’m not reading messages - since I will have let you down and am in avoidant, head in the sand mode.
I AM ANGRY.
………At myself for being weak, at “The Forum” for not seeing how close I was to caving in – not that you know me, not that I told you – I accept it was an unreasonable expectation but the anger remains.
Let us be honest – I wanted to back out and re-join, to avoid the shame of being here again – failed.
Mod 3 informs me that’s a no go – unless I reinvent myself as a lie
So – I’ll front up and plonk myself back here because
As previously said
If it takes 100 times – I will make this