Non smoker Lyds :-)

[nsd_user663_61222]

Still going strong like a trooper feels strange I can actually say I don't smoke!!!

[nsd_user663_61320]

That made me laugh, I know exactly what you mean.

Brill isn't it and I feel just a little bit smug!

[AngryBear]

Well done Lyds, put your quit date in your signature, show off a bit

[nsd_user663_54332]

Still going strong like a trooper feels strange I can actually say I don't smoke!!!

YAY go Lyds!!

Oooh it's a fab feeling isn't it?

[nsd_user663_61222]

Messed up!!!!! 😭😭😭😭

I'm so stupid!!! Was doing sooooo well then sat evening decided to smoke!?!?!?!?! Feeling so stupid and let down. The thing is I wasn't even craving real bad I just fancied 1 n didn't fight or stop myself! Why? I do not know!

Keep getting feelings n thoughts saying although I'd quit 10 days straight no matter how long I'd quit for I will see myself smoking again!! 😭😭😭 now feeling so guilty.

All I can do now is start the process again!?! I know I can quit & am strong enough to do it, so y the hell did I light up that cig????

Feeling confused.

Sorry to let myself down

[nsd_user663_61222]

Silly me!!!

Was actually 12 days smoke free 😢

[nsd_user663_61432]

Hi Lyds

Don't beat yourself up so much. So you had a wobbly - don't we all.

You need to dust yourself off and not let one mistake deter you from keeping going.

I believe you can do it

:):):):):):)

[nsd_user663_61320]

Hi Lyds

Gutted for you, but I've fallen for that one in the past.

You don't want one so therefore you're no longer addicted so it's ok to have one. Then you're totally confused because you suddenly realise you've been fooled and you're still an addict and all your achievement has been wiped out.

Dust yourself off and learn the word NOPE. Not one puff ever.

You can do this. So you start again, it's a trick you're not going to fall for next time the demon tries it and when you've been quit a year 10 days is totally irrelevant.

[nsd_user663_61094]

You can do this Lyds!!! We are all here to support you!

[nsd_user663_61222]

Back to day 1...again

Thanks for the support all. Xx

Back to day 1. Just taking it as a learning curve, n dusted myself off to try again.

It's the mental thing a!? I think/thought I like smoking but really I don't (makes me feel sick) and when not smoking I feel so great , healthy n confident in myself like in my body.

So today I am smoke free 😃😃😃 just wish my partner kept it up 2 coz it's just a bit tougher knowing he's smoking, seeing the fags n smelling it etc. oh well time to get strong! 💪💪💪💪

[nsd_user663_61320]

Good to see you're back. We all have that see-saw in our minds especially at the beginning. It's the pull of I want to smoke THAT one but I don't want to be a smoker.

I will never smoke ONE cigarette because I know there's hundreds more lined up behind it that I'll have to smoke, even though I don't want to.

I really don't want a plant to be in charge of my life!

That made me laugh as I typed it, now imagining my cactus on the window sill shouting 'right it's 5 o'clock get out into that cold windy garden and suck on this' but ironically it's true.