Day 11: cigarettes = a nasty ex

Feeling a little blue today. I won’t cave, I have come too far, but goodness me do I want to today! This past two weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster and something I have never been through before, however, all of the feelings I was having felt so familiar and I couldn’t work out why. Then I realised that I have been through something very similar before. I realised that giving up cigarettes felt the same as giving up an awful ex-boyfriend that was no good for me!

You spend months (or years) knowing it has to stop but you don’t feel ready, then one day you decide you have had enough. Then it is the first thing you think about when you wake up and the last thing you think about at night. You want it all of the time but you know it is no good for you. You tell yourself that surely you can just have it once and then walk away? But then you know if you do you feel like a failure and back to square one. You are emotional, low and flat and then sometimes feel an elated sense of freedom. After a few weeks it gets easier, you don’t think about it as much and you know that your life is much better without it. I have every faith that cigarettes will end up a distance memory just like the awful ex!! :)

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  • I agree with you there, smoking and toxic relationships are almost identical in their "hold" on you - once you make the break and free your mind then life is so much better. I too have thrown off the shackles of the bully partner and the fags - it took me 12 years longer to get off the smokes but I would NOT entertain either of them in my life again ;)

  • Thanks for the motivation all - I will keep plodding on with my 11th smoke free day and be a happier person at the end of it. And that ex boyfriend is long gone thank goodness, just the cigarettes cravings to beat now.

    Max, unfortunately (or fortunately!) I am not an actual WAG, just a silly nickname! Sorry to disappoint! :D

  • It's a really good way of looking at it Mag :)

    Fags are a nasty, smelly, stinky ex that keeps trying to get you back but you're better and stronger than them :D :D

  • Nice one Waggers!

    Congrats on reaching 11 days :)

    I said this on another post, but I'll repeat:

    11 days, 13 hours, 46 minutes, and 40 seconds = ONE MILLION SECONDS

    Which sounds uber-impressive. And in fact IS uber-impressive :D:D

    Well done!

    Steve

  • Fantastic fact there Steve, that is a whole lot of seconds!! :)

  • You've got your head in the right place there Mag, easier to deal with the feelings if you can identify you've felt them before. When I quit, I actually wrote a letter to my smokes telling them why I was stopping and that they were no good for me...helped me a lot and I re-read it during difficult times in the early days :)

  • So true, facing the feelings somehow makes it a bit easier. Dirty dancing sing-a-long tomorrow night to look forward to - am hoping that I won't feel the need for a cigarette - Baby wouldn't.... Nobody puts Baby in the (smoking) corner!

  • So true, facing the feelings somehow makes it a bit easier. Dirty dancing sing-a-long tomorrow night to look forward to - am hoping that I won't feel the need for a cigarette - Baby wouldn't.... Nobody puts Baby in the (smoking) corner!

    It'll make your voice so much better too, no more croaky and better breathing :D

    Have a fab time, but do watch out for surprise attacks from the fag monster!!

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