I'd almost forgot that I'd quit.

[nsd_user663_24115]

Not been on the forum for ages , busy with course work and dont feel able to be very helpful as i'm very unhappy with some personal issues which seem to pollute every interaction i have with people. i must say that smoking is a great leveller of undesirable mind sets. I've always used smoking to deal with being alive in a world full of difficult people including myself. I guess i've always been a social misfit when it comes to being a member of the human family and smoking always made it beararable (no pun intended there ) bear a rabble) now that i dont smoke i'm just dumbstruck and want to retreat away from the christmas insistence on being with family ..uuugh. i am no longer prepared to be the family scapegoat so i guess im redundant. I could just sit through it in a cloud of smoke and lose my quit , that way the families precious feelings and pretence would be safe...... i think ive lost the plot now....... still quit. hate xmas. bah humbug... families are totally over-rated anyway.

:rolleyes:

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You do sound fed up Mash, KK is right you should have some fun. I am pleased that you are still not smoking though.

I hope things improve for you and you have a great Christmas and you and the family get on well too.xx

[nsd_user663_24115]

Lifes too short for fussin and fightin. Do i want to be happy or right? both but i'll settle for happy. Its such a small shift to move from hate which is fear in disguise ,to love which is the only thing of value in this universe. So my bag is packed my gifts are wrapped and im about to catch a train to spend time with my kin to sit round the hearth warming our cockles. Have a very happy Christmas everybody and a bazzin new year.

mash xxx