Val's Week 2....take 2.

[nsd_user663_59642]

After my terrible "Friday of fags" I got straight back on the wagon and am now part way through Week 2, take 2 :rolleyes:.

I was devastated at the stupidity of it. I actually hated myself for days afterwards for having been so pathetic and weak. I think my hatred of my weakness is what has enabled to me get straight back into my quit. :eek:

Still, I have learned plenty from it. I have reduced the Champix to half a tablet a day, taken in the morning, because taking half of one at night as well brought the nightmares back.

The other thing is about dealing with difficult situations. When I had my difficult situation on that Friday, I was so wrapped up in trying to resolve it that I didn't notice the crave sneaking up on me. So what I do now, is I attend to any issues or problems which arise but at the same time I keep a part of my mind alert for a sneaky crave sneaking up on me.....sort of multi-tasking!

So that's me and my current situation. I am not altering my signature as it is a record of my quit and my stumble. I will reach the penthouse; a little later than I had originally hoped, but I'll get there.

Val

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[nsd_user663_54332]

YAY for Val!!

Don't beat yourself up about your slip - it happened and it's an educational experience!!

If it helps at all, I had a slip but for longer than yours, before my last quit - went CT for just over a fortnight 'cos I was too ill to smoke for a week (and if you know me you'd know how ill that had to be :eek then smoked but not much for just under a week, shook myself and quit again.

Then didn't touch one for 18 months-ish.

[nsd_user663_60104]

Hi Val,

Shame it happened, but your dealing with it just fine, you could have easily carried on smoking, but your post says to me that its not the road you want to follow, and you will be better equipped to deal with it, if a craving should arise again. Keep strong

[nsd_user663_59305]

Hi Val. I am so glad you're back posting again and have now stopped bashing yourself over the head about it. The very fact that you felt so bad is, in my opinion, a huge indication that you will do this once and for all, I mean, who would put themselves through that distress ever again. And when you do get the penthouse, 365 days smoke free, you can forget all about it for good. pic4ever.com/images/dancegi...

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Thank you so much lovely ladies! It is good to be properly back posting, but I waited until now (Week 2) as it would have been so dispiriting to be posting from Day 1 again.

I must admit that I ummed and ahhhhhed about where to put myself on the forum and tried to find excuses to stay in Month 2, like saying "oh, it was just a blip" or "it was only one day" or "but I hadn't had a Champix for 2 days"......the excuses rolled in just like the old excuses for having a fag used to. :rolleyes:

But in the end, I put myself back to Day 1 as my conscience wouldn't let me do anything else. I have been very hard on myself over the whole sorry business, but now I am being more sensible about things and am so very glad to be back.

Val

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[nsd_user663_57259]

Oh Val, I'm so sorry nasty Nic managed to get hold of you and we weren't around to try help you give him a good swift kick you know where!!! However, huge well done to you for picking yourself right back up! You are fantastic for being able to do that - I have never been able to jump back on the wagon quickly!!!

You can do this!!! We will keep your seat warm and your drink chilled in the penthouse for you just a little later than you hoped but BETTER LATE THAN NEVER! Huge hugs coming your way!!

Sarah xx

[nsd_user663_59642]

Oh Val, I'm so sorry nasty Nic managed to get hold of you and we weren't around to try help you give him a good swift kick you know where!!! However, huge well done to you for picking yourself right back up! You are fantastic for being able to do that - I have never been able to jump back on the wagon quickly!!!

You can do this!!! We will keep your seat warm and your drink chilled in the penthouse for you just a little later than you hoped but BETTER LATE THAN NEVER! Huge hugs coming your way!!

Sarah xx

Oh,no, Sarah.........I had a tremendous amount of support from the forum....everyone was so supportive and helpful when I was worried about the Champix. I hope nothing I have posted has given the impression that I felt I was on my own. :confused:

I punished myself horribly and went into a self-imposed exile for over a week....it was me withdrawing from the forum when I lost out to Nic.

But things are much better now, I am well and truly back on track and am looking forward to the comfy seat/chilled drink in the penthouse....thank you!

Val

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[nsd_user663_59642]

Thanks, Max. That's me.......a tough old bird! :D:D

Val

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[nsd_user663_48218]

Val, when I saw this post my heart sank. I was so disappointed for you because I could tell how disappointed you were (I hope this reads the way I mean it). I am so glad you didn't let it hold you down and you got right back into it. You can't keep a fighter down and you are such a fighter. You are going to win this war!!!

[nsd_user663_4025]

As you said, a blip, you learned and that made you stronger - and what is best, you did it straight away, not wasted four years like me, that shows strength and determination, so give yourself a pat on the back and carry on wiser and stronger

[nsd_user663_27255]

As everyone has said, you've learnt from it and are back on track again.

Go Val

[nsd_user663_59642]

Thank you Mark, Marta and MrsMash. xxx Oh, lots of MMMMMMs there!

I'm a bit glum about having had to go back to the start, but that's the price I had to pay and I have learned lessons from it. :cool:

I do feel a bit of a fraud when it comes to supporting and encouraging others, though. It's not that I don't want to.....I just don't feel "qualified" to do so, having fallen by by the wayside myself. Maybe when I get back to Month 2, where I was before, I will feel better able to support people and give kicks up the behind when required! Maybe my experience of a smooth-sailing quit which suddenly gets decimated might mean I can be more helpful? I was so shocked I could hardly believe it happened.....I'm still shocked now. Funnily, though, in some ways it seems as if it never happened, as if I'd never had those fags on the ghastly Friday.

Val

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[nsd_user663_60104]

Maybe Val it just shows that it can and does happen and that us new quitters need to look at this post and be aware, very aware so don't feel fraudulent in tyring to help others

[nsd_user663_53658]

Tonnes of respect Val for getting right back at it and you'll be back where you were in no time.

You always give really good support and advice to others so don't worry.

Molly x