After all my trumpet blowing I Stupidly had a fag :mad: hate myself now
Hubby just had to be carried into the house absolutely blocked, I was so angry so once I got him into bed I took one of his fags :mad:
Ashamed and annoyed at myself is a understatement!
Did it help the situation,no - hubby's still an ass!
Did it make things worse - hell yes, not only am I furious at Him and I'm now mad at myself!
Am I going to give in and let it beat me - no f**king way! I was feeling happy and so proud. I want to be a non smoker so patch will be on first thing in the morning and I will continue with my quit!
Sorry to everyone that has been supporting me, I should have came here first.
I just wanted to make note of this major slip so I can re-read it.
I'm not going to call myself a failure this time as I believe it's been a lesson learnt and one I will not be learning again. I will not let this turn into a full blown relapse!
What an idiot!! Do I have to go back to day 1 now ??