DAY siiiiiiiiiiiiiix!

[nsd_user663_58459]

I'm ok. Really. The worst part is waking up and not smoking. I feel like I suck at this. I still want to smoke really bad. I talked to my husband last night and he said well.... You have to want to.

So does that mean if you deep down really didnt want to quit you won't? I'm asking because I'm struggling and I heard I already been through the rough part.

Blah.... No motivation.

Stay away from food.

Drink more water.

Work in my garden

Go out of town and visit my husband.

[nsd_user663_58459]

Thanks Max414, I know it's the addiction talking. It's just so hard. I had my first at 13 I'm 31 now. I just stepped out to go work in my garden since I've neglected since I quit. I'm so use to going out to smoke and work on it and it was a mess. This is my first thriving vegetable garden and I've worked so hard and spent so much money trying to keep it alive and trying to keep my dogs from tearing it up. I found one mangled like a dog laid on it. So mad. I wanted a garden so bad because of so much news about food being contaminated. It sucks when you don't feel safe buying fresh produce. Well anyway thanks. This is just so hard. I'm glad some of you post back. Then I don't feel so alone in this.

Last year I went through a group thing required by my insurance. I think it made things worse. I hated talking about it all the time. It made me want one more.

[nsd_user663_54332]

I'm ok. Really. The worst part is waking up and not smoking. I feel like I suck at this. I still want to smoke really bad. I talked to my husband last night and he said well.... You have to want to.

So does that mean if you deep down really didnt want to quit you won't? I'm asking because I'm struggling and I heard I already been through the rough part.

Blah.... No motivation.

Stay away from food.

Drink more water.

Work in my garden

Go out of town and visit my husband.

Hi Jenn

You're nearly at a week which is fab - well done

It is hard at first. Used to wake up and be outside the kitchen door in under 10 mins for a fag - but when you get used to it it becomes dead easy!! Don't even think about it when I wake up any more and you'll get there too

[nsd_user663_58459]

Ok so my normal routine was wake up, go to the bathroom and go for a smoke and then make coffee. I would sit and channel surf for about 20 minutes then smoke and get to whatever I have to do. I don't watch TV much but I like to see what's on. I smoked probably half a pack a day if it was a bad day maybe more. I rarely ever smoked a full cigarette. I usually smoke the one 2-3 times. But I probably went out back at least every hour. And I'd tend to my garden or water my dogs HaHa, they like the water hose.

Now I wake up and lay on the couch when I wake up and think about smoking. So shortly after I get up and find stuff to clean or organize. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm using the 14mg patch, I bought an e cig yesterday just in case I feel like I "need" it. I really don't want to use it because in my opinion it won't help me break the habit. I praise those who can use them successfully.

I mostly quit from pressure from my husband. He used Chantix and after like 2 weeks he had no desire to smoke and he said they tasted horrible. The only personal reason I quit was for more stamina at the gym, with running and weightlifting. It would also be nice to not be a slave to them. Always have to worry if you got enough till the next day. If you go somewhere will there be a place to smoke. Will I get a chance to smoke. It seems like my entire day revolves around smoking.

I'm having a hard time right now. I just spent 2 hrs washing my truck. I came to check in because all I can think is how easy it is just to go buy a pack. I wish this feeling will pass. I really hate it. I'm getting so depressed. I just ate a bowl of strawberries and they looked good but didnt taste very good. I really am depressed.

But thank you all for being there and encouraging me.

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I know. I just wish the desire would end sooner than later. I've heard many good and negative things about that pill. My doctor actually refused to perscribe it too me. He said it didn't work and was expensive. Although my husband quit with it and it only cost him $30. So I dunno. My aunt said he probably refused because I'm on other medications.