Only 5 days till I get to the penthouse but I'm thinking of packing it in. I went through hell for quite a long time and if it hadn't been for this forum I would have given up long ago. I'm waking up in a panic every morning, scared to look at my email because I'm waiting to hear about my visa to live in NZ with my family. If I don't get it then my health won't matter. I live alone and since I came back to uk, nearly 4 years ago I don't speak to anyone. I stay in bed all day because this was my mothers house and I can't bear to sit in the living room even though I've had it completely done up. I tried going to meet ups but getting out once a month isn't enough. This forum kept me going but everyone has left since it changed. There used to be jokes everyday in the general section and now it's all cryptic songs. Forgive me but I'll be 70 in a couple of months and I haven't heard of many of them. I miss all the helpful people who used to come here and feel that every time I leave advice it's ignored.
Stopping smoking hasn't made me any healthier, it's just made life unbearable.
I wish everyone the very best of luck with their quit and hope this forum gets back to normal soon