I don't believe it!!

It's been a lovely warm sunny day and I've had a fab afternoon out in it, might have had a drink too ;) It's only the second nice one since I quit (yes the weather's been *that* bad) and the first time in 3 and a bit years that I've spent a sunny Saturday with my friends without smoking either a real cigarette or an electric one. It's a bit of a bigger deal than it sounds 'cos it was always this time that I'd smoke myself stupid so it was still rather new.

So when one of my friends lit her flip-knows what ciggie of the afternoon (was I really that bad? :eek: er yes I was :o) it sort of hit me. That and another wave of stinky fag smoke *ick*

Why the flipping hell did I do that?

Was i even slightly tempted to ask her for one? Honestly nope not at all!! :D :D

I can't believe I'd let my life be ruled by these little white sticks - burny ones or electric ones - whatever happened, good bad, p*ssed off, bored or just because it was "time" these stupid things would control me.

Would rush meals to go out and smoke, want to end conversations, all kinds because I couldn't think of anything but sticking a fag in my mouth - what kind of life is that?

Well it isn't mine, not any more :D I feel free, totally and completely free and it's lovely!!

Smoking is a load of c**p and I'm never going back to it.

Am dead proud of myself for breaking the habit, extremely grateful to the people on here who helped me especially Kat, Max and Sarah Lou and really keen to help anyone who wants to free themselves from smoking!!

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  • What a fab post, well done you. You should be very proud of yourself x

  • What a fab post, well done you. You should be very proud of yourself x

    YAY thanks!!

    I'm really proud and amazed that I've got here :D :D xx

  • Woooo, we do love a good revelation don't we Genma Lou? :D

    That's fab news girl, can't believe how reachable the penthouse is looking these days!

    I'll drink to that *hands Gemma jäger bomb* ;) xxx

  • Woooo, we do love a good revelation don't we Genma Lou? :D

    That's fab news girl, can't believe how reachable the penthouse is looking these days!

    YAY :cool: It's flipping great isn't it?

    We are both going to be in the penthouse in no time at all, how fab is that? :D :D

    I'll drink to that *hands Gemma jäger bomb* ;) xxx

    Ooh me too *clinks glasses*

    xxx

  • Now THAT is the rip-roaring call of defiance from you Gemma Lou that we have been waiting for!:D

    I think you begin at last to see that life beyond smoking,REALLY beyond smoking-clean fresh air,no wasted cash,no filthy stinky addict sticks or creeping about outside doorways,it all sucks why would we want to do that!!!!!

    Go Gemma!!!!! :D:D xxx

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    YAY for defiance!! :D :D

    Can definitely see life past smoking now and while I've had times when I was certain I'd fail now don't see how I could :cool:

    No more smokey me!!

    *Celebrates* xxx

  • Yay for lightbulb moments!!!:D:D:D That's fantastic petal, chuffed to bits for you! Will raise a glass to your Damascus moment later on xxx

    Definitely a huge YAY :cool: Thanks hun :)

    What I love is that now I smell of perfume, not perfume and fags. I can smell the soap on my hands, fresh air and all that and am in control, not being controlled by the damn fags!!

    Will be there to clink glasses too :D :D xxx

  • Brilliant post Gem, a real inspiration for anyone just starting out. The feelings you describe toward smoking indicate a major point reached for you. Very well done :D

    PS Enjoy the sun, still piddling down here North of the border :rolleyes:

  • Brilliant post Gem, a real inspiration for anyone just starting out. The feelings you describe toward smoking indicate a major point reached for you. Very well done :D

    PS Enjoy the sun, still piddling down here North of the border :rolleyes:

    Aw thanks!!

    It's lovely to be able to say it too - never felt this good about a quit before 'cos I was always hankering after a fag, but this time is totally different!!

    Ooh heck, it doesn't mean I'm growing up does it? :p Now that's a scary thought :eek: :eek:

    And another fab thing, I haven't had any gum since before breakfast - am in need now but will drink some coffee first and then see if I still need it.

    If i can drag myself off Boohoo's website to go and get it of course :p

    Hope you get some dry weather soon!! xx

  • Well done gemma-lou. You should be very proud of yourself to have reached so far & feel so positive xxx

  • Good going Gemma

    Yes it would appear you are growing up :D

    Keep clearing those foul smoking thoughts and just as foul,ecig thoughts out of your mind and out of your life,'cos this is the brand new Gemma Lou and doesn't she smell lovely :p:p

    Thanks Max!!

    Ooh heck noooooooooooooooooo I odn't want to grow up!! :eek::eek::eek:

    Am loving being a non-smoker and smelling nice though :D :D

    Well done gemma-lou. You should be very proud of yourself to have reached so far & feel so positive xxx

    Thanks, I am really proud 'cos I never thought I'd get here!!

    You're going to be where i am pretty soon you know :) xxx

  • Yes Gemma just dwell for a minute and think about where you are. Now.:D

    Kind of special place this isn't it?

    :p

    A long way from the stink of smoking and the slavery of addiction.:mad:

    Has taken a while to get here but By God doesn't it feel great!:D

    This is a pretty flippin great place to look at the World from!!!!

    It's pretty good isn't it?

    I'm amazed and really happy to be free of the fags!!

    6 months ago I wasn't even considering quitting and if someone had told me I'd be smoke free now I'd have thought they were mental!! Am very impulsive ;)

    It's taken me a while to see smoking for the load of c**p it is, but now the bit of me that think a fag would be "nice" is very very small indeed and knowing I can never smoke again doesn't scare me at all 'cos I don't want to!! :)

  • And that dear Gemma is called-having your head in the right place :D

    You know you have turned the corner here love now don't you,this is your quit to throw away now rather than yours to fight for and to win,you now hold the winning cards over the little stinking yellow fella just hold the ship steady and you have cracked it :) xx

    Yes it definitely is!! :D D:

    I'm feeling so much more confident in my quit now and it's fab!!

    Don't think I'm going to be throwing this quit away, it seems really odd to me now that I spent so long inhaling stinky smoke into myself for fun - cleared out the place i used to smoke in here and - you're going to think I'm barking - it made me shocked and amused that I used to go in there so often, it was like "Oh yes I used to smoke didn't I?" :eek::rolleyes::o

    Seems so long ago now, like I'm a totally different girl!!

    xx

  • The oddest thing!!

    This is kind of weird!!

    Anyway, I was just starting to crave and it was building up like it does :/

    But this time I said "NO" and "Go away Nic" (well something a bit like "go away" lol) and WOOHOO no more crave :D :D :D

    I'm really doing this aren't I? :cool::cool:

  • It may be weird but it's also flippin' FANTASTIC!!!:D That's great sweetpea, sounds like you've really turned a corner on this, I'm soooo chuffed for you! xxx

    YAY :cool:

    I am a bit odd :P but hey it works and i still haven't had any gum since just after tea :)

    Really think everything's coming together now!! xxx

  • Morning hon, how are you feeling today?

    Hiya hun :D

    I'm not too bad thanks, a bit low 'cos I always am in the mornings - my brain misses it's kickstart or something :o but tough, it can have gum and patch and flipping like it!! *Chews*

    How are you? xxx

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