Day 19

[nsd_user663_52784]

Hello, I am on my 19th day of no smoking.It is my longest attempt since now.I am 20 years old and i study at a university abroad.However, I just realized that i will fail the year.Really afraid of my parents' opinion about this (because they threw a lot of money for my education) and besides, next week I have a moot court (simulation of a court pleadings) which will be in front of many people.I know myself, I will get really nervous and probably will want to light up a cig. Can you please give me an advice.I feel really good now on my 19th day and i don't want to allow the nicotin demon to prevail next week.

[nsd_user663_57587]

Avengers,

You are still young. You are at a time in your life for trial and error. School and education isn't for everyone and maybe that isn't the path or your destiny. As far as being in front of a lot of people, they are probally a bunch of clowns and jokers anyway. I wouldn't be to worried about them. Just do your best! Definitely do not give in and smoke a cig. No education (college degree) or a bunch of people you have no idea who they are and will have no ill effect on you after this moot court thing is worth you relapsing!

Do what makes you happy, if you are failing in school then forget school, don't waste anymore time with it. You are 20 years old you have years, decades and over half a century to make that measly wprthless money to repay your parents back! Be straight up with your parent and go on with your life. The last thing you want is years and decades going by and not doing what makes you happy!

A lot of people wish they could be 20 years old again. I am one of them, so take it from me. Screw something if it doesn't make you happy, screw trying to make others happy, and just focus on yourself, your likes, and what will make you happy!

And lastly never smoke a another cigarette ever again in your life! EVER!

I just want to add one more thing. The next ten years will go by very fast. If school isn't what you are interested in then use your head and think about how you are going to make money. Make goals and tells yourself that you will set aside a certain amount of money and save all that you can! I would personally make a goal to put away at least $10,000 a year every year for the next 10 years. If you go work a minimum wage job and save whatever extra money you can from gifts or what ever means you can its very doable. Tell yourself that you want to save and have $100,000 in the bank by the time you are 30 and work towards it! The more the better!

[nsd_user663_57708]

good for you keep up the good work!