I was at work last night with a client that ive cared for a long time. For the first time ever i was asked to help her smoke a cigarette. This involved lighting it, holding it and putting it to her mouth. I point blank refused to light it for her as to me that would besmoking myself so git her husband to light it but then stood there holding the cigarette for her and helping her smoke. I panicked when i realised what i was going to have to do but actually i absolutely hated it! The smell, the smoke and watching her exhale the smoke was the worst thing. It really made me realise how much i now hate smoking.
I got really annoyed when i came home and told my OH about it and he asked me if id smoked any. I felt insulted that he had to ask andhe didnt think that my response was one of horror!
Its one month since i stopped today and i can honestly say i cannot see myself smoking again.