emo moment

know idea why but today has been bloody horrible! i spent most of the morning and afternoon talking myself into going out and buying some cigs, telling myself that i preferred smoking to this.. .. took me a good few hours to snap out of it and realise i do not want to smoke. i also don't want to drink.

my reasons for quitting are:

my eldest son started flushing my tobacco down the loo , we had a chat and he told me he didnt want me to die.

i wantched my own mum get lung cancer and have to deal with treatment , she got through it .. and she quit too.. for a while .

she started again ..even missing half a lung and almost dying couldnt keep her quit i often thought if she couldnt quit how the hell could i .

honestly i have begged my mum to quit so many times.. and it really hurts that she can't do it for me or herself :(

so when my son asked , i knew i had to , as i know how much it hurts to be ignored.

anyways..had to get that all out, sorry for the rant

lorna x

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  • know idea why but today has been bloody horrible! i spent most of the morning and afternoon talking myself into going out and buying some cigs, telling myself that i preferred smoking to this.. .. took me a good few hours to snap out of it and realise i do not want to smoke. i also don't want to drink.

    my reasons for quitting are:

    my eldest son started flushing my tobacco down the loo , we had a chat and he told me he didnt want me to die.

    i wantched my own mum get lung cancer and have to deal with treatment , she got through it .. and she quit too.. for a while .

    she started again ..even missing half a lung and almost dying couldnt keep her quit i often thought if she couldnt quit how the hell could i .

    honestly i have begged my mum to quit so many times.. and it really hurts that she can't do it for me or herself :(

    so when my son asked , i knew i had to , as i know how much it hurts to be ignored.

    anyways..had to get that all out, sorry for the rant

    lorna x

    Hi Lorna

    Looking after your mum must be so hard for you when you can see the damage it has done.

    You are you're own person though and you CAN do this!

    I had no faith in myself at all in the beginning...none at all. But as time has gone on I am thinking maybe I can do this.

    Give yourself time and don't beat yourself up so much.

    You have to be kind to yourself now, more than any other.

    Well done staying strong so far, just keep going.

    Your son is so proud of you I bet. :)

    This place is a huge melting pot....for happiness, sadness, anger, relaxation and sometimes just for a good rant. :)

    So rant away.

    Take care

    Greg

  • Hey Lorna, you've just passed a month haven't you? Well done lovey, you're still going to get days that are just a bitch but they're going to get further and further apart as well as get easier to deal with when you do get them.

    You just have to hang in there and get through this. It's going to feel so much better tomorrow, I promise! Not least of all because you're going to be able to see how flipping strong you are. You'll also be armed with that if and when you get any more bad days.

    Keep posting so we know you're ok chuck. It'll take your mind off things as well. And lastly just think of the grin on your sons face because youve made him so proud! You should be proud of yourself.

    Please stay strong Lorna it's so worth it

    Molly x

  • hey, Lorna, You really want this, so keep strong, Im in my 21st day and that nico,devil keeps visiting me too, we can do this!!!

  • Hey Lorna, stay strong hun, keep reiterating to yourself the reasons why you've quit, it will pass eventually xx

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