know idea why but today has been bloody horrible! i spent most of the morning and afternoon talking myself into going out and buying some cigs, telling myself that i preferred smoking to this.. .. took me a good few hours to snap out of it and realise i do not want to smoke. i also don't want to drink.
my reasons for quitting are:
my eldest son started flushing my tobacco down the loo , we had a chat and he told me he didnt want me to die.
i wantched my own mum get lung cancer and have to deal with treatment , she got through it .. and she quit too.. for a while .
she started again ..even missing half a lung and almost dying couldnt keep her quit i often thought if she couldnt quit how the hell could i .
honestly i have begged my mum to quit so many times.. and it really hurts that she can't do it for me or herself
so when my son asked , i knew i had to , as i know how much it hurts to be ignored.
anyways..had to get that all out, sorry for the rant