I woke up so happy I had made it through day 4 without caving in. Right before bed time I had this really strong urge to light one up. It lasted for almost 3 hours. The idea of smoking snuck in my head and made itself at home. I was awful. I did my best to distract myself but it was such a struggle. I just keep telling myself the following:
1. I have made it this far. It would be such a shame to give up now.
2. I can always choose to smoke again. So there is no rush to grab a fag right now.
3. Wait...just wait 10 minutes. Keep waiting 10 minutes. I have managed 5 days of 10 minute bits so far.
4. ALWAYS remember the reasons I started this quest to quit in the first place.
I have to keep reminding myself that I am not losing something. I am gaining the ability to breathe, smell, and not be chained to an addiction. It is very hard and sometimes I think I will go mad but i'm still here!
Whenever I imagine myself smoking and the cravings are bad, I stop myself and breathe. Then I imagine myself in the future, a non-smoker who can't even fathom smoking. She goes for walks and can breathe!! She enjoys tea much more now that she can really taste it. She smells lovely and and is proud to have overcome such a difficult thing.
I am so grateful to have you all here telling of your struggles. When I start to panic and feel so alone and helpless here you guys are. I am lucky to have come here.
Questions for you:
Do you find yourself "fake smoking"? I seem to breathe in as if I was smoking when I drive. Almost as if just pretending to smoke helps soothe the cravings.
What do you tell yourself in those moments of panic to help keep you on track?
Day 5 and counting!!