This turkey is very cold.

[nsd_user663_54189]

Today was awful. Last night was very, very hard. Luckily for me, I am blessed with a DH who hasn't doubted his quit at all from day one - honestly, if he had caved, I would have caved; and a sister who has been there and done that and understands very well the rage and despair I was going through this morning. Honestly - I was snapping at my lovely family, gritting my teeth and just seeing red this morning. Fantasising about smoking yet absolutely not wanting to smoke. The schitzoprenia was setting in! Then my sister looked at me and said "look Lorraine - do you really think a cigarette will make this all better?" And I started bawling. Tears and snot. Lovely.

The upshot is that I have started on half a champix twice a day. I have taken one half tablet and the difference it has made - what a relief. I am disappointed that I have not managed cold turkey, but this way is far better than wasting a perfectly good quit! I have stopped with champix in the past and I don't know why I didn't just do the same this time. I found the first three or four days easy, then it all went downhill - why was I doubting myself??? Perhaps it's hormonal as well...don't know.

Anyway, I am feeling a touch of nausea or something - tummy issues anyway - but physical discomfort is a large bit of nothing compared to the schizophrenia of this morning. Now I feel (again and quite rightly) delighted to have escaped the jail cell of being a smoker. Phew!

[nsd_user663_53202]

Good decision to go onto the Champix, especially under the trying circumstances, well done.

[AngryBear]

Can't comment on Champix, having never used it; I don't even know what it does, but................day 5, great going, well done you. You have great support there!

[nsd_user663_42471]

Great going Nyx

A trying time and the choice of using a method to keep the quit going rather than to fold is a testament to your resolve to quit for good. Remember this day it will spur you on when other hard days turn up.

Don

[nsd_user663_52845]

Hi Nyx

I came off my NRT 5 or so days in to my quit and hit a wall.

I didn't know which way to turn, felt so bad having to go back on my NRT it was almost like smoking again!

I came on here and swiftly got a slap in the mush....which was just the ticket!

So glad you found a way forward and not backward.

Well done Nyx

Take care

Greg

[nsd_user663_54189]

Thank you everybody. I feel so much better. I wish everyone had the wonderful support I am getting - and that is where this forum comes in for a lot of people, I am sure. Thank you for your kindness! I hope everyone has a lovely evening, will probably 'speak' again tomorrow

[nsd_user663_53260]

Well done

It was awful seeing you wound up soooo tight that one question made you have to leave the room to cry

I know the champix can get you over this initial bump and that's all you need

Anything I can do sis xxxxx love you and I am so proud of you!

[nsd_user663_54209]

Good on you

Nyx, that's so great that you didn't give up on the quit.

I haven't had my feathers ruffled this week (other than by myself, and perhaps some memory lapse type issues perhaps to do with quitting - e.g. went into town TWICE on Friday and on BOTH occasions forgot my purse - knee jerk response was to have a fag but didn't, thank God).

But next week will be different and I think I'm going to have to have some sort of chemical back-up just in case my praying and deep breathing and trying not to think too much doesn't work. It goes against the grain for me, having never taken regular medication and my ego taking pride in that, but in the long run it's got to be worth it to kick the smoking habit. Daft really, when you think what's in a cigarette and I smoked them for years and years.

Day 6 today for me! Well done us! It's a really good thing.

Another deep breath. It's gotta be worth it.

Susan.

P.S. Might start my own thread to say hello, but having some real doubts over my choice of user name now. I'm always saying "fingers crossed" when I'm hoping for a good outcome. But as a user name I hadn't quite realised that the abbreviated version "fingers" sounds like a pickpocket, gangster's henchman, a jabbing accusatory person, or something else. Cough. Anyway.

[nsd_user663_53394]

I love love love your name

Please dont change it fingers!!

[nsd_user663_54189]

Noooooo, I agree, with mrsm, don't change the name - I think it's fab! It does sound a bit gangsterish, but that is a good thing :D:D

Sounds like you are doing really, really well. I am praying too. This is the best thing we are doing - think how happy your ego will be about no more disgusting, illness-inducing, guilt making, money sapping cigarettes, fingers!

[nsd_user663_54209]

Thanks Nyx,

It is worth it and right now I know that and I want to be a non-smoker more than I want to smoke, but it is hard! I survived work today, but turned into one angry, tired bisum tonight. So wound up..... Grrrrrrrrr. Someone close to me was pushing the right buttons tonight on the telephone and I let them.

But got to this time, no cigarettes today, and it's just past midnight.

Another day done. One week today. That is my personal best since 1993.

I need to post my reasons for staying stopped, there are a lot and need to keep that in mind.

Good luck!

Fingers crossed ;).

[nsd_user663_53260]

Fingers, Keep it up, one minute at a time if you need to! Personal best - YAYYYY well done

You can do it. Keep breathing and be nice to yourself xx

And you too sis! Great going xxx