Hello folks!! Im feeling very determined today. Ive really had enough of stupid nicotine! not just fags, but the actual nicotine now! I spend most of my time feeling anxious because im craving a fag that i dont even want to smoke really, my skin looks hideous! (when i quit cold turkey twice before it clears up like magic!!) I feel like crud most of time and wake up feeling unrefreshed to be met with feeling like a crack head for a fag. I notice that smokers are robbed of that relaxation and calm feeling, are bellys are always occupied with the nicotine monster. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE MADNESS! then to go through all that everyday to risk horrible diseases and die 10-15 years younger....what is the flipping point!? we also pay £8.50 a pack for this service all to avoid about 4 days of horrible anxiety followed by a few weeks of adjustment. Then your DONE! as long as you dont have any nicotine, you are sorted!
The main reason i avoid cold turkey is to save others of my horrible mood, but you know what..sorry..but i dont care anymore! the only people i will be dealing with the next few days arent my friends anyways so why do i care if im abit...distant. My mum knows the drill to just leave me be awhile.
Time to man up, crack on and be done with it. Sorry for the rant im just so annoyed with the whole thing lol xxx