I just majorly lost my temper on a trainee we have out here. This is fairly out of the ordinary for me but not totally. I cannot believe how quickly my anger built up and was unleashed on this poor fellow. A few mins later i had to take him aside and apologize.
The good news is that i didn't consider smoking afterwards or even really think about smoking, but iam gonna go ahead and blame the quit on this one 
Good on ya chuuurles, well proud, ok not of loosing your temper, but not even thinking of the fags,
Keep it up hun
Hi again Chuurles, I hope you're still doing ok and re your temper - don't worry too much!
I worried so much that my temper would get the better of me when I quit my tempers never been the best, (I look after a disabled dad, poorly mum and my grandma who has just had to go into a home, and work a full time job :D) and though its surfaced a time or two it's been better than when I smoked!
If you apologise it will normally be ok. People are generally really understanding and they'll know you can't help it.
Molly
Xx
thanks guys!
thanks for the advice Molly. To be fair the guy deserved to be yelled at, i just went alittle overboard lol. He sometimes has an attitude problem, i asked him to do something 3 times and he kept questioning me and kept talking back. That's not how it works out here. I spent a year as a trainee and i would drop anything and be at anyone's beck and call. You have to pay your dues in this job!
ah well iam usually pretty mellow and the nicotine must be almost out of my body now so hopefully that was a one off event!
..and another thing
You quitting with all of that on your shoulders is truly inspirational! I feel bad moaning now considering what you must have gone thru stress wise!!!
It will pass Chuuurles, well done for making amends straight off and not making your day worse.....
Not at all. The cool thing about looking after family is that I've known them all my life. Hard occasionally but mainly ok just no time!
From what you say, I wouldn't worry at all! He should've known better.
How you feeling now?
Molly x
i keep meaning to say this you guys can call me charlie or charles or whatever u want! but yah dont need to keep typing out all those UUuuuuu's lol
Welcome Charlie x
Molly I am feeling great now! Ill admit there was a slight drop in euphoria when i woke up this morning but i expected that was coming! Also after my blow up i calmed down pretty quick
Re family.. My mother is a very severe alcoholic, which has torn my family apart and is one of the reason i started smoking in the first place. She cant beat her addiction but I am determined to beat mine and it helps to motivate me!
she says addiction is a disease, i know for me alteast that it was self induced!
of course Molly!
Hi Chaz 
Self induced or a way of getting away from it?
As far as the temper goes, like you say, maybe you were just saying what you meant to say all this time but stopping smoking just brought it out a bit sooner ....and maybe a little more abruptly!
I manage a few people and to be honest things happen that really ... REALLY get my goat! (hope you know that saying?)
In times gone by I would walk away, fume, and smoke a fag.....bottle it up! After stopping smoking I am starting to realize that that wasn't a very good management approach!
They were in the wrong and I should have sorted it head on!
I am doing that now, trying very hard not to do it in a hard way, not my style, but showing them ... gently .... the "error of their ways!"
Anyway mucker,
Keep going, it's great to hear from you all that way away on the ship.
wonders of modern science eh .... pff.... next thing you know they'll be putting a man on the moon!!
Take care mate
Greg
The good news is that once you get past this initial GRRRR couple of weeks, your temper is likely to be much better, and you much calmer - contrary to what you might expect.
I used to think my kids could be really aggravating, and so it helped me to run into the back garden and smoke. As my quit progressed it was a revelation to me that they were just fine** - it was my need for a nicotene fix that made me intolerant of them, not the other way round. The smoking didn't help, it made the whole thing worse.
(**Obviously not always, sometimes they are, in fact, aggravating!!).
Keep going. You're doing great to keep going in such a stressful job and not give in to the demons. One day at a time!
Helen
I just majorly lost my temper on a trainee we have out here. This is fairly out of the ordinary for me but not totally. I cannot believe how quickly my anger built up and was unleashed on this poor fellow. A few mins later i had to take him aside and apologize.
The good news is that i didn't consider smoking afterwards or even really think about smoking, but iam gonna go ahead and blame the quit on this one
Was a good job it aint wanna me or I probly Wud if done the same back
Was a good job it aint wanna me or I probly Wud if done the same back
haah i do not compute!
Well like you suggested Greg, smoking was prolly a way i thought i could get away from
the troubles of my mom. But what i meant is that getting addicted to nicotine was
self induced. Like Mr. Carr says you have to try to get addicted because smokes are so F*&^ing
gross! And again Greg like you said as soon as i apologized to this trainee i went to the
Big bosses and told them that i messed up and lost my temper. They both said "good you yelled at him he needs it" lol
still feel alittle bad about it but meh iam not gonna lose sleep over it !
Next time i can hopefully take him aside quietly and have a word instead of blowing up.
Helen i know what you mean re: taking your anger out on others when really you just want a smoke.
this used to happen to me alot with my OH and I am hoping when i get home things will be alittle easier!
I feel spoiled to have so many people on here's support
also everyday i wake up now the very first thing that seems to automatically pop into my head is "YOUR NOT SMOKING TODAY!"
hope you lucky people have a nice relaxing weekend. I have no such luxury!
Oh come on Chralie
Don't give us that old one!
We all know you're sitting on the deck in the sun with a G&T reading the paper! Feet up, bowl of grapes by your side and a few young maidens playing volleyball on the games deck!!
hehehe!
Stay strong mate
Greg
I know I won't smoke again now.
