day 19 - maybe should lay off the drink for a while

[nsd_user663_36609]

Fairly drunk ATM, making me feel quite emotional as I'm recovering from heavy depression and just feeling like I'm not good enough also wanting a fag so bad but I'm not giving up! It would ruin me if I did anyway

[nsd_user663_6426]

Hiya Robin, I would try and not drink for a bit. Alcohol is a depressant and I've noticed myself feel really down in the dumps if I've drunk too much. It will also seriously affect your will power....as in whittle it away to nothing. This is when we're at our most vulnerable it is very, very easy to give in and have that cigarette. You are bloody good enough...listen to me (this is where I grab you by your lapels and give you a shake). You've got through to day 19 without a cigarette that's a marvel not a cause to maudle. Make sure you're not giving yourself an excuse to smoke, our mind plays tricks on us too. It will create situations in where we feel we deserve a fag cos "we need it". You don't need it!!!! you've proven you don't. I'm rooting for you and think you're great for getting to day 19. Stick with your quit. Someone on here has said "the illusion of a cigarette is infinately better than actually smoking one" and they're right. It would taste disgusting and by smoking you actually would feel as if you're not good enough. If you're that drunk...go to bed. You can't smoke if you're asleep. Thinking of you. You can do it.

lisa x

[nsd_user663_36609]

Thank you for your kind words, I'm home now. I think there was no chance that I was going to give in. However it was more the feeling of being down that was worst. It's my first time drinking again in months and it wa so good at the start but then it just went sour ha. I'm sure after a sleep I'll be fine. What would I do without this place eh

[nsd_user663_6426]

Phew...just glad you got through it. I don't drink to the point of being sozzled anymore as the next day I feel really down. It's just how alcohol affects me so I try and just get pleasantly merry now. It's hard for me though as when I'm merry I generally just want to keep necking down the drink. Stoopid I know.

Well done on not giving in, that takes a lot of will power and courage. So feel very proud of yourself. Take care and nite, nite.

Lisa x

[nsd_user663_5185]

Glad u got through that I have been smoke free for two weeks...its not withdrawals or weight gain that is worrying but I seem to have hit rock bottom..depressed..sensitive...teary..bored. I have been drinking a lot due to holiday time..hasnt made me want to smoke but now I seem to b enjoying the taste of alcohol. Gud lu,k