Ruined

[nsd_user663_34742]

Ruined.

Have just ruined a nearly 3 month quit.

1 day off.

All got too much.

Done a lot of stuff I shouldn't have done but this is the biggie.

Tastes vile. Solved nothing.

Sooo cross with myself but its done now.

[nsd_user663_4558]

Just put it behind you and call it - part of the process!

One tip I am following at the moment is - don't drink at xmas parties. I have got three to attend next week and have planned to take the car to each - no drink, no temptation to kill myself with weed.

Been to two xmas do's over the weekend and drove to them both. Didn't even think of nicotine! (or drink) and had more fun!

[nsd_user663_34855]

Sorry to hear you had a bad time JQ

I had and awful day yesterday, not so much craves but if I'd have had access to fags I think I would have mugged someone for one. Very strong craves! Maybe it was a timing thing, I know a few of us from mid Sep quitters have been having a strange few weeks, we've posted a few times lately haven't we. Try and get straight back on your quit, a blip is just that and you have done so well to get this far.

[nsd_user663_37391]

Hey JQ, don't beat yourself up.....we are only human, as they say learn from mistakes and move on

[nsd_user663_34380]

Hey JQ ...sorry to hear about this. Dust yourself off as quick as possible and get back into the quit...it will be easier.

Steve

[nsd_user663_32615]

Oh JQ - so sorry that you have had a blip - I know that you have been finding things tough for a while.

I really hope that you are able to climb right back on that horse without making a relapse of it. You have done so well, and it would be a terrible waste of a great quit.

Let us know how you are doing...

xxx

[nsd_user663_34721]

JQ

We ALL been finding it tought this month!!, consider it a blip and move on, in my eyes you still in month 4!

[nsd_user663_34742]

Hi Guys

Thanks for the kind words and encouragement. I am so cross with myself. I did it purely in spite of myself.

To those considering it, let me tell you, it was SUCH a disappointment. I can safely say there was nothing enjoyable about it. I smoked the last two in my OH's pack, after a drunken night out and a big bust-up and then had a further three rollies yesterday thinking "Ah well, I've blown it now. There's always the New Year..". All the while I was thinking how vile it tasted, yet didn't stop.

Today I am starting over. I don't actually want to smoke any more. That's the sad bit about it. In the past I have been relieved when something like this has happened, meaning I can continue to smoke and not feel bad.

I am undecided, like many have said before me, quite where I fit in on this forum now. I do not feel as though I am on Day One - I am still on the same journey - yet I would feel a fraud to crawl in to month 4/5 today. I think I may just keep off here for a while.

Thanks to all who have supported me from Day One, and I wish you all the best.

[nsd_user663_37391]

Hey JQ, don't stop posting, doesn't matter where you feel you fit in the forum, you fit and a valued member!!!

I have a 6 week mental blocker and your last post about it being such a disappointment and vile tasting has really helped me to reinforce my quit and get over my 6 week quit at the weekend, so thank you!!

Good luck

[nsd_user663_34742]

Thanks Sara, and I'm glad to have been of some use!!

You're doing really well. Stick with it x

[nsd_user663_34321]

Aww JQ, plse don't stay away from the forum. I agree with the others, its only a blip so don't let it put you off. You've done brilliantly and come so far Use the fact that it did nothing for you to keep yourself going now. You're in control not Nicodemon.

[nsd_user663_6426]

Hiya JQ...sorry that you feel awful about having a cigarette but as long as you keep giving up that's the main thing. It wasn't all for nothing, just think of the rest you've given your lungs, I bet they appreciate it and I bet your pocket probably feels heavier with all that money saved. You're doing a hard thing giving up again so continue to post if you have to. After a failed attempt I always start over...I just feel like I'm not being true to myself but honestly where you fit in is totally down to how you feel about it...no one on here will judge. Either treat it like a blip due to stressful circumstances or start over it's up to you. As long as you stay quit that's all that matters. Try and take something from this blip/failed quit and it will not have been for nothing, when you find yourself in the same situation you will know how to deal with it better. All the best

Lisa x

[nsd_user663_33545]

JQ , I know you feel disappointed right now but remember you done a great job for 3 month. Don't beat yourself up for a blip , you know you can do it.

[nsd_user663_34425]

Sorry to hear you had a bit of a tumble, but you've still been clean for almost 100 days! Stick with it. As long as you don't go back to smoking regularly, you won't have to go through all those horrible withdrawal days again!

Up and at 'em JQ!!!

/Barney

[nsd_user663_35351]

Oh well dust yourself and start again - Back to day one with a new attitude and hopefully a valuable lesson learnt.

Good luck with your next quit.

Mark

[nsd_user663_25112]

JQ dont feel bad and please dont stop posting you are important and we all need you chin up you can do this. Jacqui. Proud member of the November N.O.P.E group. Quit: 14.11.11