I found this forum like lots of other people in a moment of intense-craving-argh-quick-Google-search-to-take-your-mind-off-it, and it's been so useful to read people's quit stories and all the support! So I've decided to join so I can chronicle my quit experiences here.
I'm on day 7 today of cold turkey, and today has SUUUUUCKED. Sucked! Sucked so bad! I have been an emotional basketcase! I've nearly cried a few times. It's not just cravings, it's this feeling of intense emotional fragility, and the sense that everything in the world is awful and the sky is about to fall on my head. But today has sucked, and I haven't smoked a cigarette, so I guess I still win.
I live in a city where everyone smokes, everywhere (Berlin, Germany, where as far as tobacco is concerned it's still 1973). You can still smoke in bars and restaurants here, and every 2nd person on the street has a cigarette in their hand. That hasn't been too hard to deal with for most of the last week but today when I went out for a walk the sight and smell of cigarettes EVERYWHERE hit me like a punch in the gut. It didn't make me want to smoke, though, it made me want to cry.
So far my quit strategy has been avoiding trigger situations (bars & parties) and trigger substances (coffee, alcohol) and distracting myself with snacks & knitting. It's worked in that I haven't smoked.
But, I'm worried about the future. There aren't many places I socialize where cigarettes aren't present, and a lot of my friends are smokers. I quit for a couple of weeks a few months ago and as soon as I was going out to bars again, I felt how quickly my determination not to smoke was eroded by alcohol and seeing everyone else smoke. I'm happy to be a complete hermit and stay out of bars, cafes and parties for the next few weeks at least (maybe months even- it's winter after all, maybe I can just stay at home with my knitting until April!), but I'm not sure how long the strategy of 'avoid my entire social life' is going to be healthy for me. I'm scared that when I start going out again I won't be able to stay away from cigarettes, and I would REALLY love to hear some encouraging stories about being out and about in bars and parties as a new ex-smoker and not giving in!
Meanwhile I guess I need to stop worrying about the future so much and just be proud of myself for getting here, day 7, and being absolutely determined not to go back (not for a single cigarette, not for a single puff, no matter how drunk I am nor how attractive is the person offering it to me!).