Doing the thing

So now Im trying to do that realignment thing with my brain. I know thats not what you call it, I think its positive something or other.

Well anyway, Im off work at the moment so normally everyone else is up before me and Im out of my usual habits. However when Im not off sick I love the time in the morning when no one else is here, its my getting my head ready for the day time. My morning ritual was a couple of mugs of tea and a sackload of ciggies.

So this morning I had to be up early to run my sister to work as she is having her car sorted today. I was sitting in the living room, all quiet and cosy, with my cup of tea and all of a sudden I couldnt stop thinking about having a smoke. I just wanted one and that was that! So out came the lozenges and I tried to imagine myself smoking, I couldnt even muster up a vision of my face. So I tried to imagine a figure smoking, inhaling the smoke, watching it go down the throat, into the lungs.....I felt physically sick!

From now on thats my strategy I am just going to imagine all the ills that that one smoke can do.

Im sure that someone put a link on here for a you tube video to help people do this but Im buggered if I can remember who and what it was called.

You know I dont think I will ever leave this forum, its like a slimming club, you stop going and you get fat again!

Lillie xoxoxoxox

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  • I used to conjur up the image of mixing myself a drink, and pouring in some tar, some ammonia, some formaldehyde, a couple of teaspoons of ethanol, a pinch of arsenic.... Would I consider downing that to make my day better? NOOOOO! So why would I light a cigarette?

    You're so on the right track Lillie. Just keep on going, it gets easier and easier, and the bad days fewer and further between.

    Hel x

  • Hey Lillie, I know what you mean, it's just an old association coming back to haunt you. I get that when I come out of Tesco's :rolleyes: but by the time I'm halfway up the road its gone again. I am still getting cravings due to being only on Day 5, but I refuse to get into an argument with a stupid, thick plant. It must be stupid to keep coming back knowing it isn't getting anywhere with me, so it can go play in someone elses garden :D

    Stay strong as you are Lills,

    Zoe xx

  • I used to conjur up the image of mixing myself a drink, and pouring in some tar, some ammonia, some formaldehyde, a couple of teaspoons of ethanol, a pinch of arsenic.... Would I consider downing that to make my day better? NOOOOO! So why would I light a cigarette?

    You're so on the right track Lillie. Just keep on going, it gets easier and easier, and the bad days fewer and further between.

    Hel x

    yuk yuk yuk....think I'll stick to the no smoking :D

  • Some of these associations are a bit clingy but they get the message in the end. at first i avoided situations where id previously smoked but i ended up as a hermit with no life, its best to do a bit of graded exposure little and often is my motto, eventually doing the biggies like the pub and smoking friends, its the ones that come out of the blue that can still throw me but iv beaten two of them recently and its taught me to be aware of surprise. Its like having to completley re train youself and see it as a gift cos the alternative means more of what we all got sick of i think.

    Mash x

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