Ok nearly 3 wks. had fallouts withseveral people i love. have found it so easy so far . have lost track of a post i wrote earlier and now im not so sure i even wrote it. feeling flat. depressed and dont know what to do with myself sick of going for walks had one earlier and was almost run over on the pavement by a weird looking woman with a fag hanging out of her gob all i could do was stare at her ridiculous looking mouth and cigarette. she was obviously on a different planet to mei couldnt say anything to her, i was just expecting an apoogy. since then i cant concentrate on anything ,even went to bed but got bored . i think my brain is not what it used to be its so used to having nicotine. its odd them posts have gone AWOL. i hope thes feelings pass soon they are just weird. POtty is all i can say to describe it all.