Pleased to report in that Day 4 is now over and out
Good day really, (for most part) I didn't even think about smoking until at least an hour or so of being up and about, normally I struggle most, first thing with my morning cuppa but not so this morning.
Still experiencing the odd mad voice in the head every now and again….. 'just have a quickie, no one needs to know' ….or 'your doing so well, you deserve just one cig'.....:eek: but nothing too strong I couldn't deal with.
My quit counter (nicely rec by lillie) has told me that 'my physical addiction is now over following 72 hours of none smoking' whoop whoop...! then why do I have these nasty thoughts to have one ?? lol
I would describe Day 4 as quite easy to be honest, easier than day 3 anyway so that’s got to be good but I have had x1 major ‘head masher upper’ later in the day…
Anyone who read my Day 1 post will remember my best mate Tony acted as the ‘ass kicker’ I needed to go from talking the quit to doing the quit…. He has recently started his quit using Champix and is about 2(ish) months ahead of me and because we are sooooo competitive (it’s a boy thing) I had a reserve tank of ‘quit stamina’ building for emergency use !
Well, he calls up to see me today and we’re having a chat, ‘Day 4 for me pal’ … I proudly say, ‘Fantastic, well done mate’ he says…. then I’m asking him about any negative thoughts, craves, do you still get them …blaa blaa
He responds with.... ‘not much now pal, say 2/3 craves per week but if they are really strong just have a fag !!! WTF…!!! Are You Serious ….??
Are you telling me your still smoking ? ‘Errrmm, …I’ve only had 3 or 4’… he says …..like it's as normal as.......(something really normal ?)
I’ll never smoke properly again and it’s ok to have the odd one, whilst your still on the Champix ?
I was proper shocked…. ‘You bleeping bleep bleep’ (cause ladies read my post) I said .... and he just laughed it off like it was OK ??
So after he left…. I keep getting more of the
‘just have one’
‘it’s o.k. cause Tony told you… he has the odd one’
‘don’t let him get away with having one… you have one too then your even’
It may sound really daft because he can please himself and it doesn’t affect me if he smokes 100 per day but I feel like I’ve been cheated…… like we were playing cards and I’ve caught him with an ACE up his sleeve….. I would throw my hand in and say that’s IT ….I’m not playing with a cheat. This really has un-nerved my thought process….mmmhhhh
Secretly I'm a bit glad.... because in my book if I last 3 months+ without so much as a puff..... I've beat him !! so I should use that to help see me through to the 3 month mark.
Ah well, I can hold my head up high….. I haven’t cheated….. (yet..lol)