Hi. I've just stopped smoking.
Ok, it's the third time today, plus about 10 times yesterday, and the day before, and loads of times in the past few years.
I just can't seem to get started. If I could get through the first couple of days I think I'll be okay (well, not exactly ok but able to talk myself out of it) because the 'I don't want to go through that again' will kick in, but I can't seem to go more than an hour. In fact, I'm craving already and I've only just had one.
I've been thinking of all the reasons to stop and they just don't seem to be hitting home - it's like they've become part of who I am ( honestly, sometimes I actually think I'll miss the smell, the yellow fingers, the hacking cough, the breathlessness, having no money - how's that for distorted thinking).
I feel as if I'm possessed by a demon - the real me, deep down inside, doesn't want to smoke anymore, but the demon's feelings come first!
Anyway, here we go - 10 minutes, 5 minutes, 1 minute at a time.