Yet another round of sinusitis and I think a chest infection has brought me back to that miserable spot called 'I know I've got to stop, I know I want to stop, so why can't I?' And I've run out of answers.
I'm scared to stop, mostly because previous attempts have left me feeling like I'm going mad, as if I'm going to lose control. The anxiety/anger levels were almost at panic level. I'm off to the doctors this evening regarding the chest infection and I'll swallow my pride and ask for help - I don't believe for one second that I'll get anything more than a patronising lecture and possibly a prescription. I'm hoping this forum can help as the only person who knows what a broken leg feels like is someone else who has broken their leg - no matter how much non-breakee's may try to empathise they don't know how it feels.
Miserable as sin, I know. Sorry.