well i have never used any of these forum things before so here goes....
well i stopped smoking cold turkey 1 day short of 2 months ago now. Iv been through the phycotic stage and have slightly calmed down now. My eating habbits are going pretty steady..any sweet things il take them and lots of them. weight gain-definately.
but i still think stopping smoking at the start of my year trip round NZ was a silly idea..mostly because it was my boyfriend who made me promise not to smoke again.
anyone who says it gets easier lies! every single day i still want one, i get nasty headaches when i do. The evenings are the worst now. i havnt been drinking since iv stopped so im not sure about that one.
is it soo bad to buy tobacco just to have it in the evenings?????i dont really want it during the day now..just the evenings.
i just want one ciggy to test if i still like it.i mite spew up in disgust for all i know. my fingers feel empty and without purpose.hhhhmmmm this sucks.
i think the only thing thats stopping me is the fact i will be soo disiapointed if i start again, it was all for nothing. but i still want one.aaararrrggggg