Hello everyone, this is my first post and I was not really sure which forum to post in to be honest as I am sitting here typing whilst smoking a fag
I started smoking again today as I realized that this non-smoking business needs more thought and planning in my case. I have just gone 27 days CT and had no desires to smoke, even now I have no desires, but I am forcing myself to smoke for my mental health.
All was well for the first 3 weeks, but this last week I have been feeling depressed and suicidal and have been plotting my own demise. I have been depression free for just over 10 years and I 'coincidentally' have been smoking for just over 10 years.
I really do want to quit and so would appreciate any help from anyone who has experienced a similar situation and maybe found a way to get past this undesirable 'side-effect'. I feel that smoking has somehow masked the fact that I am generally very unhappy with my life and quitting just opened my eyes to this fact. Not really sure what to do now. :confused: