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6000 times I've failed

On Monday the 11th April I've failed to smoke 6000 cigarettes since October 2010. At times I've failed to smoke them with some difficulty, but now I fail to smoke them with pleasure. I loved to smoke. It defined me. I thought it made me a rebel. Now I know it gave me nothing except nicotine.

I could endurance smoke. When others said "enough" I could carry on. Others said enough before me and stopped. I carried on.

At times I feel like I'm the last person who ever smoked because it took me so long to finally "get" not smoking.

I've long read these boards but never posted before. I do wish I had though.

6000 fags not smoked or £1818 at todays prices.

I've absolutely loved not smoking every single one of them.

Good luck at all my fellow nicotine addicts

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It's funny I feel less proud the longer I've stopped. It's just becoming normal not to smoke. Every time I stopped before I did that thing where you smoke the odd fag deluding yourself you're in control. This time none at all. I've done a big holiday, a rugby weekend and a stag do all without a fag. On all of those I had people who knew me as a smoker asking for a fag or a light or to keep them company outside.

It's not pride that stops me smoking now. It's knowing that one fag could set me back in the trap and that I wouldn't actually enjoy it. Which is how I felt about cigs before I ever started smoking.

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I think thats a fantastic way to feel :)

I am just about to start a quit but when I was on a previous one I made cigarettes a great memory in my head. This broke my quit and I realised when I lit it that it was disgusting and I didn't enjoy it at all.

I know exactly what you mean. I have a wardrobe full of T shirts bearing that legend. I never think about smoking in a positive way now.

Good luck with the quit.

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On Monday the 11th April I've failed to smoke 6000 cigarettes since October 2010. At times I've failed to smoke them with some difficulty, but now I fail to smoke them with pleasure. I loved to smoke. It defined me. I thought it made me a rebel. Now I know it gave me nothing except nicotine.

I could endurance smoke. When others said "enough" I could carry on. Others said enough before me and stopped. I carried on.

At times I feel like I'm the last person who ever smoked because it took me so long to finally "get" not smoking.

I've long read these boards but never posted before. I do wish I had though.

6000 fags not smoked or £1818 at todays prices.

I've absolutely loved not smoking every single one of them.

Good luck at all my fellow nicotine addicts

I love this thinking - well done you. This is very, very clever - I have only loved not smoking 80 at the minute but today I pay-paled the money to the Disasters Emergency Committee for the famine in East Africa - it would only have gone up in smoke anyway. It felt so good - I might do it again tomorrow. I'm really impressed by your success - take care

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Well done Lambut :)

I'll pass the 10,000 mark this weekend.

I still regard myself as a nicotine addict and have to be sensible. For example I was tempted to have a cigar on the last night of a Mexican holiday in June, but I changed my mind as I thought it'd either make me feel shitty for the flight home or just stick me back on the smoking trail. I was slightly tempted to smoke on a recent rugby/camping weekend when very drunk. Funnily enough seeing them selling cigs behind the bar stopped me having a single fag. I reasoned that I'd have 1, then another, then buy some and smoke 10, then take the rest home and have 1 a week later and then 1 every other day etc etc etc and then you are back smoking!

I still like to read this forum now and again and I empathise with those going through what I've been through. It's easy to say, but it does get easier with time. That's what makes you feel so stupid when you do a long quit and start again. Don't stop stopping and good luck to all of you.

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i like smoking!!i need it:D

div ...........

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