Trust issues

I'm on day 77 and going through serious trust issues with my self. I still can't allow my self to think that I am a non-smoker. I'm still avoiding talking about it to people as I don't want to go back on my promises if I "happen to" start again. I still feel like I don't have full control of my self.

Sounds a bit crazy I know. Anyone else going these type of mind battels?

Sometimes I just think if this is really worth it since I can't see my self staying strong forever... I keep telling my self that it will get better, but what if it doesn't? ARRRGH. Bad day today... :(

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  • 11 weeks quit tells me that you are suffering a little bit with the terrible 3s syndrome, I had this and suffered something awful, but it did shift and I know what you mean, makes us sound a little superstitious when we are scared to tell people, but we are not are we ????

    A couple more weeks and you will start to feel better, I know I did when I got past the three months milestone.

    Don’t worry about what others think about your quit it’s how you feel about it that matters, if at first you don’t succeed then try again, I am not being defeatist just saying that we don’t all manage it first time, I didn’t but I know that now nearly eleven months down the smoke free road I daren’t say too much as I am scared I will tempt fate.

    Good luck and hope you feel better soon, read the water link in my signature as being dehydrated can make you feel sh1te.

    This site is a fantastic support system so you are half way to having a lifetime quit I’m sure.

  • I must be odd, I tell everyone, even in shops. Its partly pride in what I have done, partly my excuse for buying sweeties/larger clothes, and partly because I dont want to ever think I can just have a sly one, as everyone KNOWS I dont smoke.

  • Savuton, I think it's normal to expect yourself to be entirely confident prior to telling others. After all, you don't want to let yourself down, do you? I would suggest that you just keep going until you get to that tipping point where you know deep inside you that there's no going back. It WILL happen, for sure. Hang in there!


    Thx Michael. I defo don't want to let my self down after all this time and am looking forward to that tipping point.

    To stay motivated I've now put a timeline for my self... for each year smoked, I will give my self a month to get over the "relationship". So, I've smoked 20 years, which means I need to give this non-smoking thing a go for 1 year and 8 months before I can truly make my final decision about smoking. Yes. Now that I've written this down, it looks like a good plan :)

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