Glad you are all doing so well in your quits. I fear we don't hear from those who have fallen off the wagon. i know that I tend to slink away and don't go on the forum until i am ready to try again. Well, for those of you who are finding it hard, so am I. However, the fact that have got this far is amazing. I am only able to do it one day at a time and every morning i wake, i am dissapointed that I have no ciggy to look forward to. The good news is that i am not as affected by melancholy as I was at the beginning of the quit. In fact, the sands are slowly shifting, and I am almost (but not quite) pleased that I don't smoke any more. As the day goes on , i feel happier and happier about it. the morning is always the worst cos it is like you have to face life all over again without your best mate by your side. So once I have put on the patch, i am fine and the day gets better and better, even when bad things happen. In a nutshell, it has all been worth it and instead of looking forward to a fag, i look forward to the feelings of pride and hope for the future that i experience on a daily basis. so, if , like me , the start off the day is the worst part, just keep going and you will fell better very soon.
I honestly cannot contemplate any further than today re not smoking and i find that this works well. it is nice to live in the present instead of worrying, regretting the past and fretting about the future. I will be extremely annoyed if I get run over by a bus during my quit. that would seem unfair. It would be o.K if I was smoking a fag and got run over, if you know what I mean.
Also, the benefits of stopping are beginning to show. My complexion is improving, my teeth look better. I don't cough, can walk up stairs no problem, and feel much fitter. I have been abstaining from alcohol recently, although as soon as I have more than 2 glasses of wine, I can feel the resolve slipping. My solution to this is to get even drunker to block out the nicodemon's voice. This actually works, but it is only a way of not cracking under the pressure of alcohol. Drink yourself sick so you can't smoke!!! These are extreme measures, but whatever it takes,as long as I do not smoke! I would recommend avoiding booze at the beginning cos it has always been my downfall in the past. Everyone is different though.
Anyway, it is a rocky road, but day by day , and thanks to the great people who help so kindly on this forum, it is getting easier to deal with. So keep going and remember the happiness that not smoking can bring.