Can't believe I am here!
After all my slip ups I thought would I never really trust myself to stop smoking. But after many, many, many attempts to give up this is the first time I actually believe I have stopped.
For those of you still struggling - just never give up trying. I had to give up drinking (at least temporarily) to find my way and you will find yours too as long as you don't give up trying to give up!
Thank you all for your helpful advice - you saw what I had to do before I did, just took me a while to catch up!
The only slightly worrying thing is the panic I felt when I ran out of sparking mineral water last night -I actually called my mum and asked her to go to the supermarket in the evening to get me some (my son was in bed so I couldn't go out). I really do have an additive personality - but luckily no died from an addiction to sparking water as far as I know.
Good luck and well done the rest of you