Aaaargh I want to sell my soul

OMG I am struggling like I wouldn't believe. I am fully prepared at the moment to sell my soul for a packet of L&B. :eek:

The sun is shining, the neighbourhood smells of cut grass and BBQ's and all I want to do is sit on the patio with a good book, a glass of wine and a fag...

I know what the logical thinking is, ride the storm, it'll get better, remember why you want to do this but I feel totally overwhelmed at the mo.

I am also possibly the most bad tempered woman you could ever meet right now, even the front door just got taught a lesson with my foot cause it stuck.. Just ended up hurting my damn foot :(

I know I have to deal with this but how have you all dealt with the beer garden weather where all I can think of is what I was doing when the weather was like this last.

Sorry - I wont be a moody cow every day :rolleyes:

Nic x

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  • Hi Nic

    Coming on here to air your feelings is a good thing - it does help honest.

    You have to stay strong and ride this out - it will pass. Try taking ten deep slow breaths works for me.(it is like smoking but without the ciggy)

    Everyone on here knows how you feel, so you are not alone. :)

    Come on Nic - you can do this :D

    Staying strong together

  • i no just how you feel, the last wk had been a nightmare but i havent caved and i'm so glad. Stay strong, your not on your own!! lisa

  • Hi. It's not of much help to you but i'm totally with you on this. I put on a brave face but actually the fiirst few days were pure hell, i NEVER want to go tthrough that ever again in my life. I was so bad i couldn't sleep, i was freeking myself out and i pushed everyone away. I was horrible. :eek:

    So you are not alone and i promise you that feeling does go away. You can still have a BBQ and a glass of wine, just enjoy the food and wine, forget the cancer stick. It takes strength and remember that nicotine is the most addictive drug there is so it's not an easy one to beat mentally but if you don't let it play mind games with you you can and will succeed.

    Support is always here.

  • you posted, which is good. Have you weathered the storm? Riding the wave as positively as you can will help. I still get pangs on light sunny evenings, but they pass and soon become part of your 'normal' routine. Trust me!! xxx

  • Nic great to see you on day 2...

    Day 2 was my hell...in fact of all the days I would least like to repeat day 2 is top. Get through today and never do it again, you are nearly there.

    Day 3 will be better...you may have cravings etc etc BUT you will know you got through day 2.

    Good luck and stay very very strong...

    xx

  • Thanks folks :) I didn't give in. I feel proud of myself for not doing so cause everything that crossed my path was doing my head in. I have been a total s*** today. I had one of my work mates offer me a cig to "help me out" if I was stuck too Grrrr

    When I stopped before I put on a couple of stone and I still haven't shifted it yet. I have decided to try to get fit to take my mind off things. I had a go at the first step of Running made Easy tonight! Well, I think perhaps running is stretching the meaning of the work somewhat - possibly fat bird out for a shuffle is more appropriate :eek: I did it tho and I feel quite good now, I'll let you into a secret. I "ran" down all the little alleyways so no one could see me!

    COME ON DAY 3 - I'M READY FOR YA!

    Hugs to all

    Nic x

  • Hey nic xx awh im sooooo made up for you xxxx brilliant ..uve just made me laugh with ure running round the alleyways xx (not in a bad way) doing bette then me on the exercise :o

    Day 3 here you do come xx the old nicola is back isnt she & im glad to see her...:)

    Moodiness does die down ..it will never ever be as bad as now. xx

    well done babe xx

  • Thanks folks :) I didn't give in. I feel proud of myself for not doing so cause everything that crossed my path was doing my head in. I have been a total s*** today. I had one of my work mates offer me a cig to "help me out" if I was stuck too Grrrr

    When I stopped before I put on a couple of stone and I still haven't shifted it yet. I have decided to try to get fit to take my mind off things. I had a go at the first step of Running made Easy tonight! Well, I think perhaps running is stretching the meaning of the work somewhat - possibly fat bird out for a shuffle is more appropriate :eek: I did it tho and I feel quite good now, I'll let you into a secret. I "ran" down all the little alleyways so no one could see me!

    COME ON DAY 3 - I'M READY FOR YA!

    Hugs to all

    Nic x

    Good for you Nic...feel very very proud.

    Running is a great idea...someone suggested it to me when I was very low and it helped tremendously. Just take it real easy and stick exactly to the training program...I went at it hell for leather and am now having to sit it out for a couple of weeks with a knee injury (hey I'm quite proud to have a sports injury at my age)

    I do old bird shuffle...but it feels great

    xx

  • I couldn't agree more about the running. I love that high feeling afterwards when you know you've done good.

  • Do whatever you like to pass those craves ,and like you say you feel great after its passed .Good luck with the alley ways today :D

  • Well done on the running!!! I gave up smoking for three weeks at the beginning of the year, went on treadmill at work, and built up to TEN minutes running (hey, I could'nt do two minutes at first!!), but, like a pratt, went back on the cigs, but i have a quit date of this sunday, doing 'quit' with a colleague, but I remember the feeling i felt when i came off that treadmill, I felt knick knacked, yes, but had a feeling of euphoria, and felt so proud of myself. In that short three weeks, not smoking, i noticed how my car smelt of cigs, how other people stank of cigs and felt proud of myself. Yes, i went back to them, but i want that feeling again. And we will get it. We will be superior to those who sneak out for a 'crafty' when it is pittling down with rain, we are better and have WILLPOWER!!!! Good luck, let us all know how you are getting on, i have absolutely no will power when i have my wine, but when i gave up, i stuck two microtabs in my chops, and did do it. And will do again. But the strange thing is, i do not normally crave chocolate, but when i don't smoke, i crave it. Thats weird. Good luck x x x x

    40 yr old mum

    20 plus for 23 years

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