I have to stop smoking now because
I'm sick to the back teeth of always planning my day around cigarettes.
I wake up and I'm not in the best of moods until I have a cigarette.
I go out an the first thing I want to do Is go to the shops to buy said cigarettes.
If I have no money I look around the house for loose coins for said cigarette.
I look in ashtrays to see if I can 'save' any cigarettes that still have a good 1/2 a puff in them.
If non of the above are plausible then I ask someone I know to lend me money till I get to the bank. I can't even walk to the bank without having a cigarette.
I hate the feeling of being smelly, I feel that when I smoke it puts a layer on my face which feels terrible.
My mouth feels like it is an ashtray itself.
I want to get fit. like I used to be no more that 4 years ago when people where impressed with how I looked. I have done nothing but smoke for the last 4 years.(do you ever get the feeling that you only work so you can pay for your cigarettes lol?)
So yes I have to get fit.
I'm sick of going to the garage real late at night to get cigarettes because I have smoked all of mines already and I can't just go to sleep because I want 'just one more'
I want to feel really healthy again, and be able to take a nice long deep breath of lovely fresh air(even if it is polluted by car fumes it can't be worse than all the toxings in cigs)
I'm sick of trying to quit cigarettes without 100% effort. Everytime I thing i'm doing good my inner consious(sp?) tells me 'its time to get a cigarette John, get to the shop!' It feels like the withdrawel symptoms are actually talking to my sub consious!!!!!!
I don't want the lady in the shop to have the cigarettes already in her hand for when I walk into the shop.
I want to put aftershave on and for it to stay on for more that 10 minutes.
I want to save lots of money. From my calculations(that sounds so geeky lol) I spend approximately £3 a day on cigarettes. (somedays I get only 10, others I get 20)
3 x a lifetime = epic.
I want my mouth to not get coated in toxings from when I inhale.
It is only a drug, which can be beaten with hard work and effort. The joys of surpassing each day without a cigarette will be far superiour to that of having one measley puff of a cancer stick. I may not realise it now, but I will when I'm much older.
Cigarettes prices should be raised through tax etc to through the roof prices. At least then may only a few others be saved.
Smoking is not cool, I regret trying to be cool at school when I used to smoke at break.
Drink is evil and only encourages you to do silly things like smoke. I gave up drinking in August and only have a pint or 2 at birthday partys or weddings (something major like new year, 1 drink). If I can give up booze I can sure as hell give up nicotine.
I want to get healthy, I must.
Rant over, god that feels good!!!!!!
1 day gone, a lifetime to go