day 30 something, 32 maybe...

[nsd_user663_8221]

Hi all, hope everyone’s doing good- I have had an up and down couple of days, so I’m just gonna have a ramble and try turn them into more up than down….So, I’m incredibly impatient, not a trait that sits well with something that’s a long hard slog, went swimming today- think I was expecting a little too much- like to have turned into an Olympic standard swimmer or something, but, it was no different to last time I swam smoking- that hacked me right off. Had a word with myself on the way home, that I was expecting too much so kinda squared with that one.

Also, I think I’ve got another abscess (?sp), which is painful and making me feel unwell, which in turn is making me feel a bit sorry for myself and emotional (I cried at Neighbours AND Home and Away today- and now I’ve admitted to that I hope I never meet any of you in person!!!) I’m hoping that will pass soon, I had a few flat/low days a week or so back and it didn’t last too long, and I’m hoping the emergency dentist tomoz isn’t too much of a butcher- when I worked I saw some amazing butchery jobs on some of my clients, they just like ripping teeth out rather than deal with anything. Sorry, I’m whinging now- and I’m meant to be making myself feel better not wallowing.

On the plus side, the craves are definitely suddenly much fewer and further between, today I haven’t used any NRT until I poured a glass of wine just now- and that feels good, more so than hitting the 1 month- it feels like I’m finally making some real progress rather than just “riding it out”. I also I don’t feel like I have to take a day at a time quite so much, I can think a look days and weeks ahead and see me still smoke free, and it not scare the living hell out of me (tho thinking in months is still scary!)

That’s about it, I’m not sure whether I’ve made myself feel better or not, but it’s good to get it down, thanks for letting me ramble, Pols

[nsd_user663_4964]

Lol POls (you see i rhymed there) It's always good when you forget the days! It starts to get a lot easier now. I plucked up the courage last month to see emergency dentist, but haven't been back since he said "The new crown will cost £200|) On the NHS! bugger!!! I thought now i was a non smoker i could afford dentistry....:rolleyes:

I really want a scale and polish to get rid of the last of the nic stains too. Can't wait to see how much whiter my teeth can be.

[nsd_user663_8421]

Hi Pols. I had a really nasty gum infection a few weeks into my quit. It made me feel very low and emotionally wobbly. I felt like a small child again while I was sat in the dentist's chair begging him to do something to make the pain go away. I also remember feeling cheated. It seemed so unfair that this should be happening to me after I quit smoking. If I was being good then I ought to get rewarded I thought.

Anyway, I've had two dentist's visits, lots of antibiotics and a tooth removed and all the pain has gone.

I hope all your teeth troubles get sorted,

Sue

Quit 40 days.

Proud member of New Year Revolutions.

[nsd_user663_8123]

Hey Pols,

Not that i watch it, but I've heard home and away and neighbours can be really sad!!!!

Lol.

At least your post is full of humour, even if you aren't feeling it in yourself!

And you're in Month 2 now, that's great!!

[nsd_user663_3728]

Hi Pols

Sorry you've been feeling down hun and hope you soon feel better again

Love

marg xx

[nsd_user663_8221]

£200? Not just the drill to be scared of then- I'm looking forward to white teeth too.

Thankyou for that Sue- that is exactly how I was at the dentist last time. I could quite easily stamp my feet and shout it's not fair in the manner of a 5 year old- only the chance is are my mum would hear and I'd get the "life's not fair dear" lecture!

Anyway, it's not so bad today so I've sort of bottled out of the appt, wimp that I am

Pols xxx

[nsd_user663_8998]

Hi POLS

Not sure what i am doing here..don't even know how to use forums but since I am trying not to smoke, I guess I have some time to see if anyone reads this and replies...I am struggling. Panic at not being able to smoke. I know its sad..Am I alone ??

[nsd_user663_8221]

Hey Vinnie- welcome, you'll soon find your way around. Not sad at all, that's why they say 1 day at a time, coz it makes us panic if we look too far ahead

Pols xxx