Firstly I state I have not smoked but its been very difficult lately with old nick playing havoc with my mind. I thought I would've pulled through to the other side by now meaning that the cravings would all be gone and I would be chilled out but they are still pestering me. I was busy giving the house my usual ocd clean (since stopping smoking lol) also my sister is due to arrive from south England tomorrow so I am really looking forward to that.
My boyfriend had gone to visit his mate Joe who I've talked about before (the guy who is suffering from COPD). I hadn't had opportunity to meet him yet but when I rang my boyfriend to suggest meeting up for a coffee later, he suggested to come down and meet him. I'm glad I did.
Upon entering his home the first thing (eyes wide) what I noticed was the clear tubing running from room to room from his oxygen tank. His breathlessness as he spoke, such a nice gentleman, he made me feel very welcome and talked openly about his illness.
Im thanking my lucky stars and thankyou Joe for making me realise that to go back to smoking could be disastrous. He knew himself and had ignored the warnings. I asked him if he had his time over again would he smoke and you can imagine the answer was a clear "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!"
Ive been given a chance to do the right thing and I will continue. Putting things into perspective....why am I feeling miserable when I could be much more miserable if I continued to smoke!!! No thanks Mr Evil Nick. Your temptations to trying to get me to buy JUST a 10 pack have failed.
Cheers Joe and thanks to my boyfriend for understanding my foul moods lately.
Im just thinking if I continued to smoke and ended up with an housebound illness. Nawwww.
Anyway, I keep thinking how disappointed I would be with myself the next morning if I did. I would be gutted if I give in after this length of time.
Breathe free and stay safe.