Day 32 - the calm after the storm

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Hiya!!

First off a massive thank you (again) to everyone who rescued me yesterday, there's no way I'd be here without you!!

And now, I'm feeling tons better, know it's not going to be plain sailing but I will beat this.

Have had a look at my notes I wrote while I smoked, and realise that going back would be beyond stupid. So it's a case of getting my mind, and my inner 14 year old to accept that part of my life is over!!

And today *drum roll* I have not smoked 1001 fags.

One thousand and one :eek::eek::eek:

Scary number, and I can't begin to imagine what they'd all look like.

I also don't have 9 grams of tar in my lungs, ewwwwwww, and am £413 better off

Hope you all have a lovely, smoke free and fun weekend 'cos we're doing something fab!!

xxx

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Gem thank god for that I can breathe again. You scare the life out of me. You are on aroller coaster like the rest of us except u have three wheeled carriage lol. Glad you didnt fall out x

Thanks Debbie, and sorry for scaring you!!

It was another one of those times where it was so overwhelming, and like i say not because I wanted a cigarette, just the whole pressure of it geting to me. It's hard to put it into words :eek:

Lol, well I've got a couple of screws loose but I'm still here x

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I'm so glad today is a better day. We will get to the penthouse for our party x

Thanks hun

Ooh we'll have such a party and it'll be fab x

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Glad to see you are feeling better Gemma :D:D

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Glad to see you are feeling better Gemma :D:D

Thanks hun

It's good to have beaten it 'cos it was properly scary at the time, like being trapped :eek:

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Thanks hun

It's good to have beaten it 'cos it was properly scary at the time, like being trapped :eek:

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Be proud that you survived

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What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

Be proud that you survived

I am

Know I need help sometimes, but I'm stronger than I give myself credit for!!

And now, I can enjoy drinking without the hangovers, or standing out in the cold freezing my legs, or worrying about breathing fag fumes over people, or picking burns up on my clothes

Oooh and my teeth are losing that "she's a heavy smoker" look WOOHOO

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Mmmm"........sounds like a ploy to me:confused:

Bet you ate all the chocs and just said you were having a bad day......bad tum more like:D:D

Glad your back on track....Now stay there:eek: Don't think we can stand the stress of it:)ain't we got enough to worry about with our own quits...

Behave yourself!!!

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Mmmm"........sounds like a ploy to me:confused:

Bet you ate all the chocs and just said you were having a bad day......bad tum more like:D:D

Glad your back on track....Now stay there:eek: Don't think we can stand the stress of it:)ain't we got enough to worry about with our own quits...

Behave yourself!!!

LOL I wish!!

I've been good and not stuffing my face too much (ish) although everything tastes so yummy now

Oooh I'll try to be good, it's flipping difficult at times 'cos I'm basically a 14 year old girl in a grown woman's body

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Glad to hear you are better today :D:D xxx

It's funny how it comes in waves, when your in the hole it feels like it will never go. Then you wake up the next morning and the weight has been lifted the sun out and life is Brill once more :cool:;) xx

Thanks hun, how's you today?

Ooh you're right it does come in waves, that's exactly it, but the storm will pass and it'll be nothing but good xx

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I am feeling great again thanks and the sun out in Wales for a change lol :D xx

Ooh that's fab!!

Enjoy the sunshine!! xx

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Glad you survived yesterday Gemma it is so hard sometimes isn't it.

BUT you seem on top today and it's another day done and closer to the penthouse

Well done

Xxxxx.

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Glad you survived yesterday Gemma it is so hard sometimes isn't it.

BUT you seem on top today and it's another day done and closer to the penthouse

Well done

Xxxxx.

Thanks hun

It's a bit of a rollercoaster at times - sometimes i feel like the original non-smoker others it's like "how am i going to do this?" but every day I don't smoke means the demon gets weaker

xxxx

Well done Gemma,inching your way through this and with lots of support :D xx

Aww thanks Max!!

I definitely need a lot of prodding, encouraging and so on but I will get there!! xx