I feel so lost......

[nsd_user663_8607]

Im so proud - day 8 and still going strong. I even had visitors over the weekend smoking and i resisted but.........

In contrast never in my life have i felt so low, so empty, so teary, short tempered and so on. It sounds so pathetic to joe bloggs - i know it does. I feel ive lost my best friend.

Amazingly the habit and cravings are far more maneagable than i expected but I cannot continue feeling such an emotional wreck. My family and bf are getting it in the neck and unsure how to deal with me.

I am normally full of life and live life to the full. All of that stopped on Friday and I cant seem to get out of this black hole. I dont want to see anyone - i just want to stay in bed under my duvet until this cloud passes. Ive started questioning everything in my life, my job, my relationship etc and am unsure how to distinguish between what reality is any more.

Please please tell me this goes - I so need some hope and direction. (I am aware this can be a side effect of champix but it doesnt make it any easier)

Thankyou

[nsd_user663_3248]

Hi Newstart, Well done on 8 days smoke free sorry to hear you feel so down.

It could just be the sence of loss we feel when we give up smoking, or it could be one of the side effects of the champex if you continue to feel so down maybe a trip to the doc might be in order.

Have read of the link in my sig (symtoms) It may help

Chin up, it will get better honestly!

[nsd_user663_8572]

Hi

Sorry your felling so down...I am on day 6 at the mo, and have some real bad times...even cried to my hubby...and thought is it worth all of this...

But, in the long run it has to be...hopefully you and I and all the others quitting, this evil weed...will come through it all better people...not only for us..but for our loved ones also...

Keep up the good work...you can pm me if you like..if u want someone to chat to....

xx

[nsd_user663_4990]

the good news is that the feelings you have now do not last forever, in fact your experience of quitting changes dramatically week by week over the first 6 weeks.

You are going through the feeling of loss at the moment, this is more a case of you getting all this time back and without smoking your at a loss as to what to do to pass the time. You tend to go through a 'sigh, i'd have been having a smoke right now' kind of phase.. but you do get through that. can't say when as it differs between folk, but it passes quicker than you think.

Once you stop romancing the idea of a smoke properly, you'll begin looking forwards alot more.. and with that will come days where you for once feel truly alive and happier.. and then you'll be far more confident.

Keep going.

[nsd_user663_8607]

thankyou both - its great to have people on here who really understand

i was thinking yesterday about the 2 reasons that I vow never to smoke again and they are ones i never expected;

1. tasting my food - wow

2. i am NEVER ever ever putting myself through this emotional turbulence again

i've just seen a chink of light - thankyou again

[nsd_user663_4990]

I'm glad you mentioned option 1 about tasting...

I was drinking some red wine on saturday night just gone, and before i drank some i found i could REALLY smell the wine but what was really funny was that i said to my OH, i can smell vanilla in that wine.. checked the label afterwards... they were casked in oak casks which seem to give off a vanilla taste during fermentation.

I've never really noticed that before.. but i did then. Nice to get your senses back.

When i was much earlier in my quit, i constantly walked past a local bakery early in the morning and the smell of the fresh bread was intense... but as far as 'taste' goes, i quite like trying to guess what spices are in a meal too.

You'll see tons of positives creep in the further in you are quit.. almost like the first sunshine of spring.. you'll like the new you.. you have to work at getting it, but the rewards you see make it worthwhile.

I hope you discover so much more yet.. quitting smoking is a big step but one you'll sure be glad you made.