...just to introduce myself - Paul here and I almost feel like I know some of you with the amount of time I've spent on here - reading and soaking up the tips and info and convincing myself that, whenever the craves try to convince me otherwise, I AM doing the right thing and that I HAVE done the biggest, bestest thing that any smoker can possibly do for themselves - yep, give it up!
So, here I am on Day 33, nearly £200 saved and feeling really good today
Some bad memories of smoking? Well, the constant background, subconcious knowing that this is bad for my health - I'm literally paying good money to f**k myself up & probably die early too gnawing away at my self-respect and, probably, my self-confidence too. Not to mention my bank balance... Coming out of the gym and having to spark up and speed smoke a cigarette before jumping in the car (how stupid does that sound???) Rushing through a lovely meal just so I can go and smoke a cigarette (ditto...) willing a quick end to a good film at the cinema/performance at the theatre just so I can go outside and... well, you get the idea...
Some good smoking memories? Well, in the cold light of day, not really. I mean it's easy to romanticise things in the past (and one of mine is that ice cold beer after a long, hot day on the beach with a cigarette or two (probably three...) as I watch the sun slip down over the horizon. But then I love sunrise and sunset and when I read somewhere that, on average, as a smoker I'm probably going to see 5000 less of each well I'm probably better off as a non-smoker right?!
At the end of the day when I first went to sign up for this forum it told me my email address was already in use - and it was, from a half-hearted past attempt to quit nearly two years ago now that I'd forgotten about - and here I am nearly 7000 cigarettes or £4000 later and, with the benefit of Champix and this forum, I'm determined to nail this once and for all.
Sorry for the massive ramble to anyone who has read thus far. Thanks to all here who have unwittingly helped me get this far and more power to any and everyone who is trying to beat this very powerful and deadly addiction!