Dirty weekend

[nsd_user663_5037]

Almost 3 months for me now, although I did cheat for a few days. Was away on a long weekend abroad with some friends, smoked all three days (at the beginning of this month) and stopped before I came back. Told myself before leaving that I wouldn't, but it was too tempting. Been back for over 3 weeks and haven't had any so hopefully no lasting damage done.

[nsd_user663_5402]

The title of the thread sounded interesting............

I completely understand why you did it. I probably would have carried on smoking when I got back, so WELL DONE for quitting again.

Are you on any kind of NRT? If so, did you stop using it and then start again?

And the last question...................did it feel good?

[nsd_user663_5037]

did it feel good...yes and no, felt good but too strong vs. what I recalled and most of the time felt bad about doing it so mixed feelings.

No NRT, tried gum the first 2 days and hated it, so after that just use normal gum

[nsd_user663_3728]

Hi BigL

I'm sorry to hear you smoked for those three days but well done on your 3 months

Love

Marg

[nsd_user663_5037]

well that dirty weekend ended up costing me, a few days after posting I was smoking again... sort of convinced myself that sticking to about 5 a day isn't too bad.

For the most part I stuck to that amount, but I know that long term it's no good, even if I did stay at that number of ciggys.

So, here I am again, 2 days after deciding to give it another go.

[CamperPete]

Well you've come back to the right place, good luck this time and don't go away for anymore dirty weekends, ever!

[nsd_user663_18695]

My Mum warned me about you!

Ooh I know what you are. you are what my mother used to call an Awful Warning. And timely for me as I had a lapse myself last week and mind keeps playing tricks on me now...

welcome back.

[nsd_user663_18695]

look at the dates

This is actually an Awful Awful Warning- its taken you over a year to get in the right head space to come back- I dont want you to feel bad but it is horrible to think that if I mess up I would delay my freedom by so long. I want it so much(freedom that is)

[nsd_user663_5037]

yep, took a while to come to my senses, so don't you slip!

[nsd_user663_21437]

This is what happened to me last year - I had quit for three months, went for a weekend away, smoked the whole weekend and when I came home before I knew it I was back to a pack a day. It goes to prove that you can NEVER smoke again when you quit, not even one puff. It's just like being an alcoholic or drug addict - one drink/fix and that's you on the slippery slope again. Good luck BigL76, I'm a week quit today with the mindset that I can never have another puff of a cig

[nsd_user663_4625]

This is what happened to me last year - I had quit for three months, went for a weekend away, smoked the whole weekend and when I came home before I knew it I was back to a pack a day. It goes to prove that you can NEVER smoke again when you quit, not even one puff. It's just like being an alcoholic or drug addict - one drink/fix and that's you on the slippery slope again. Good luck BigL76, I'm a week quit today with the mindset that I can never have another puff of a cig

I know the 3 month end of a quit well. I am determined that I will get through & past it this time. Last quit was about a week over! This time it will be a lifetime over and we will all do it this time 'cos we is special

Gaynor xx

[nsd_user663_8469]

Never give in ...

The lesson is that you cannot pick and choose with an addiction ... you are either a smoker or you aren't you can't be a part-time smoker anymore than an alcoholic can be a weekend drinker = slippery slope!!!

I slipped up at about 8 months and had two but there was a week between and I think it is the second one that would have been the end of my quit if I hadn't been sensible and stuck to my guns. The first was in a very upsetting circumstance on holiday and I didn't have another the whole holiday but a week after I got back I met up with a friend who smoked and by the end of the day I asked for one .... the first one can be called a slip but the second one could have been the start of smoking again. As soon as I put it out I made a decision not to have another and then had to go through about two weeks of constant craves .... you can never just "get away with it"!

You have to be prepared to battle this for a long time .... I dreamt I was smoking last night (after a year quit you rarely get those dreams) and I feel really restless today and a bit cravey so even dreaming about it is hard to manage let alone doing it.

NO PAIN - NO GAIN. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE STOPPING YOURSELF .... you can get past three months if you really want it.

Slowly life returns to a semblance of normality ... a different one but a good one.

Good luck

xxxx

[nsd_user663_18695]

Want one ?-check this out

This is so interesting to me. I have to find a way to keep the ghastliness of how I will feel if I have one in place. Feeling antsy now is nothing to all the antsiness I will have rolling towards me if I start that suicide run again.

Just 2 cigarettes nearly 2 weeks ago have completely freaked me out. Everyday I expect to fail. I take no pleasure from all the cigarettes I havent smoked. Its only because of some wonderful people here that I am still going. I no longer have confidence that I can stop for ever, but I am telling myself that I must stay stopped until my dental appointment in March. Hopefully by then I will be feeling more confident.

Stopping smoking is an absolute joy (eventually) just so long as you remember not to smoke.

Looper, please dont tell me off- I am really trying to get over myself!

[nsd_user663_20558]

Sandy, don't beat yourself up. I haven't had a slip and I still feel pretty much like that. There are days when I feel good and confident, but far more days when I just don't believe I can do this and think incessantly about smoking.

I think we both need to work hard on our mindset. You're not alone x

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This is so interesting to me. I have to find a way to keep the ghastliness of how I will feel if I have one in place. Feeling antsy now is nothing to all the antsiness I will have rolling towards me if I start that suicide run again.

Just 2 cigarettes nearly 2 weeks ago have completely freaked me out. Everyday I expect to fail. I take no pleasure from all the cigarettes I havent smoked. Its only because of some wonderful people here that I am still going. I no longer have confidence that I can stop for ever, but I am telling myself that I must stay stopped until my dental appointment in March. Hopefully by then I will be feeling more confident.

Stopping smoking is an absolute joy (eventually) just so long as you remember not to smoke.

Looper, please dont tell me off- I am really trying to get over myself!

Awww Sandy

I really feel for you.

I think you should look on your quit like a game of 1 day cricket....you go hell for leather to get through the day you are in, but at the end of it you pick the stumps up, win lose or draw, and get ready for it all again tomorrow, forgetting about today as it has gone now.

It is important to remember what caused your blip (circumstances) but you need to let it go before it becomes what defines your quit (hope I am making sense).

You have done an exceptional job getting this far and you must not forget that!!!!!

Come on you can do this, don't let the nicodemon back into your head :mad:

John

[nsd_user663_18695]

Thanks you guys. I like the one dayc ricket ****ogy. MUST BE WINNING THE SERIES about 75:2. Hey I feel gooood