Found it really hard today not sure if they are craves or triggers. Felt tense snappy and could so smoke a cig. Mark didnt want to come with me today he is having it hard today aswell and we had such a good day yesterday. I went to pick my friend up had a cuppa with her and watched her smoke two cigs, went to the drs to get all the scripts and went to Mums take her sleeping tabs. She told me I looked really ill (and I feel it) and that I have no colour in my face. Anyway left her and went to do the shopping came home and poor Mark was climbing the walls. We have had tea and Mark is sat playing a computer game but looking so tense he is always such a relaxed happy person. I so hope tomorrow is better and I hate that feeling of wanting a cig.