Not posted since last week as not had a good week and didn't want to post negative stuff on here and disillusion people who are trying so hard BUT now i feel it's best to be realistic and honest and accept it's not all plain sailing !!
I am using the nic gum and it does help me but my whole day just seems to be thinking of cigarettes and the question that i have proved i can stop so why stay stopped. Don't mean to sound like i want to be a smoker again because i really can't afford to, not financially nor for health reasons, nor because i want to be a good infuence for my lil grandchildren and so the list goes on, and i will keep being a miserable old so and so and feel 'lost' and hope it passes but after a week of feeling really empty i can only hope its part and parcel of the process.
I feel iv right let myself down in not being positive still but i try to reason that iv been out and enjoyed a good few vodka's 2 nights running over the weekend and didn't once want to pop outside the pub and join the others with their habit so in a way i guess iv not let myself down.
Bit of a rambling on there guys but maybe it's a good point for me to express to others who are doing brilliantly that there could possibly be '****' days that continue one after the other and these can prop up so far down the line ??