I have wrestled with myself posting today. I am dreadfully down in the dumps but I do not want to seem like a failure. I have not smoked but have wanted too. I don't know why. I have tried to post to others in an attempt to reinforce why I quit. I have read the links. I have had several serious words with myself. Its so hard though. I see or smell my husband smoking, I know he has cigarettes. 'Just one' whispers my head. No! Shouts my heart. But this is a horrible spiral I feel I am in. I am scared that for the first time I do not feel confident about a long term quit. I keep thinking why bother. OH has not quit yet. Go back to the smokes and when he is ready quit together. It must be easier than this. But its not. I am sure. Is it??