Hi everyone, Day 131 today! Time is flying by
I've not been around much the last couple of weeks because of work.
I am away from home this week on business so am eating in restaurants and spending the evenings in pubs instead of at home with the family.
While this is very nice in it's way (especially since I'm not paying!), it is very lonely and I am having many more thoughts of smoking. I've had a couple of "just the one" moments.
Probably just loneliness (fags have often been compared to an old friend) and I'm pretty sure it will return to normal as soon as I get home and get to cuddle Mrs StuartH and little StuartH but it's still annoying. It's not a crave, I don't feel like "I need a fag".... more like "I'm bored.... what can I do? I know...."
No replies with "hang in there" or "you've come so far, don't give up now" please... this is one time I am not asking for advice, or giving it... this post is just to express my feelings and to remind others of the necessity for vigilence.
During a moderately drunk moment it would be easy to smoke this week.... but there is no way on this earth that I will.
Never again - there is nothing that can make me smoke, it has to be a choice and I choose not to. Simple.
Anyway - sorry I've not been around much, I hope that is one more thing that will return to normal next week!