7 days of not smoking and feeling good. This is a good milestone and I dont feel that I have missed out on anything this week, in fact I have defintly gained lots by not smoking, clean smelling hair and breath, hours of my life, about Â£20quid and it may sound really corny but it is the self respect of simply not doing it any more that has really hit me. I genuinly feel sorry for people who feel they have to smoke as I can now see how it did nothing for me but trap me.. For nearly a decade !!
All it brings is bad stuff and I was so stupid to start in the first place, so stupid to carry on all this time and so stupid to have started again each time I have quit. I feel so confident that I can do it now, yet there are still black shaddows on my mind as they are such devious little buggers that although I feel fine and the addiction is basically driven by a mild feeling of 'hmmm I could really smoke right now' that only gets really bad when you start to mope and agree with it, you just never know.. I have done this soo many times and I am scared that I will fail again.. But it is all my decisions so Hopefully i will have the streangth to see this through for the last time.
Anyways feel much better mentally then I did on day one and starting to feel less spaced out which is nice, still a bit of a gunk machine though!!
Good morning, well done for getting this far, and good luck to everyone out there quitting... pat on the back!!!