1 week: 12 hours: 150 beautiful, lovely, soothing, always there for me cigarettes missed.
Yeah, I still love ya. I won't lie. But it just ain't gonna work out. I mean you want that whole life commitment. That freaks me out... and quite frankly, my friends don't like you. They say you're a cheap, common whore who is only after my money.
I know... I know... that was a little harsh. I mean we've had some good times together. No scratch that, great times together. I mean through the good times and bad, sickness and health. You were there. But, I need more in a relationship.
Don't talk about Coffee like that! You nicow! At least she actually does wake me up, you like totally trick me into feeling bad and then miraculously make me feel good again? How messed up psycho bunny is that?
Anyways, I'm done.
Quit calling me all hours of the day and night, because I'm totally on to it. I have called ID and stalking is against the law.
Later,
Moo
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That was totally the best sleep ever!!! ... Almost ever!!!
See that was the most dangerous part for me, the messed up sleep. I can handle a lot of things... homicidal mood swings, blinding weight gain, fidgets, nervous ticks, angry wife, non-understanding co-workers and friends. But the one thing... the one thing that could/can/should/ and might take me down is messing up my sleep. I adore sleeping well ... it is the bouncy cushion of my existence.
One... two more nights of the Hell Sleep and I would have chain smoked myself into a coma. But Huzzah and Hurray! I slept without a fit, a spasm, a vividly bizarre dream ... or anything else that has been haunting my bouncy cushion this week... all is well... another night or two like this and it's officially The End of the Smoking Moo, I think.
The cravings are way down. Haven't touched the gum in about 3 days now. Still snacking a bit much, with random binge behavior here and there. But hey, the office totally needed to be re-arranged at 3 in the morning.
Anyways, on the up and up and up it seems. If this week keeps on like this... I will be a happy Moo indeed.
It's all going by so fast now. After the agonizing crawl of each tiny little second in my tragic, cigarette free life ... I now find myself living the jet set? How cool is that!? Very, possibly even more.
Oh, it's not perfect. Dear me no. Still crave like a wild, talking demon craving thing to be sure. But it's more of a fleeting sensation now ... like looking out the window too late and saying, "Woah, what the hell was that?"
Really, sometimes I'm disappointed ... I wanted more drama... like maybe Cigarette Toting Space Pirates or something along those lines. But no ... I think I'm shallow, I'm already forgetting the absolutely horrendous days that went before this this. Well, at least I have still have my devastatingly good looks ... that always takes care of a little shallowness ... it's like the ultimate cover up.
Anyways, that's silly.
All is well with the Moo Quit. No more NRT ... though I still do look at the cigarette machines with a look once reserved for puppies behind the pet shop glass. "Aww, he's sooOOoo cute. Let's take him home! Let's take them all home!!" But I keep on movin... err.. moovin
Wow, I smoked in my dreams last night... and it was gooooood. Really, really good.
Don't really know what to do about that. Quitting was hard enough in the physical realm. I just don't think I have it in me to quit in the dream world as well. Besides, I kind of like it ...
Wow, I smoked in my dreams last night... and it was gooooood. Really, really good.
Don't really know what to do about that. Quitting was hard enough in the physical realm. I just don't think I have it in me to quit in the dream world as well. Besides, I kind of like it ...
"Do you smoke?"
"Only in my dreams, Baby."
:rolleyes:
I smoked in my dream too + it was so deperessing when i woke up cos i thought I had actually started again - turns out it was just a dream which was like the biggest relief EVER!!!!!!!!! x x x x x
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