Hello everyone, sorry I haven't been around much of late!
Month 4 for me, still going.
Trouble for me now is that I am a bit down and can see little point in making the effort to not smoke anymore.
Here comes the heart poured story, feel free to skip :rolleyes:
I was planning to quit around the same time I met this girl I really liked. I did quit and it made me feel great. She was pretty much my motivation to stay quit. I thought getting rid of the ashtray smell, yellow teeth, having more money and proving i'm not a pathetic addict are all going to be bonuses in an attempt to get to know the girl, as you do.
I really got to know her well, we got on so well it was fantastic.
That was all going great until recently when, out of nowhere, for no reason I'm aware of...everything went from going great to cut off, dead, stopped, and I feel terrible about it all, it's doing my head in. (Did I do or say something, etc, I really don't know!)
Thus I'm left upset and annoyed and not overly concerned with health benefits or any of that s**t at the moment if I'm entirely honest, and it's hard not to just smoke myself stupid.
Although that probably won't help... but these things always seem like a good idea.
Then, at the same time, I'm scared to smoke because I don't want it to be in my daily routine again, interfering with everything. So then I think I'll just have one... Then sit there in a battle with myself over wether I should, or I shouldn't.
I don't know what to do anymore