I cannot do this

I really dont think i can keep doing this. I know you are all here to talk me out of it but its driving me insane. I am sad and havent stopped crying. I really dont think i can carry on anymore. Its not fun, i dont feel good, I actually feel bloody awful.:mad:

Its not even getting easier, its getting harder.

Dont know if i will be here tomorrow............... sorry:(

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  • *hugs*

    You will be where ever you chose to be tomorrow (albeit very close!) x x x x

    We both know you'll just keep on wanting to quit,

    next time, you will wish to fast forward to today and change things.

    So bare in mind, it's better to be here than strive to be here.

    You can get through and push on with the quit if you find that strength.

    It's your journey hun x x

    It's up to you Jane x x

    I for one will love you the same, regardless x x

  • I have made some good friends here and i thank you for that. I cant be bothered to go and get any. I would have to get in the car and drive to tescos.

    I am going to have a bath and do some deep breathing.

    The only reason i think i feel like this is because my husband has been away on buisness. He came home today and told me he had one this afternoon because there was a problem at the factory. That then put smoking back into my head.

    Ohh i am so mixed up, I feel like i am turning into a raving nutcase.

  • I know you've found it hard these past few days Flippy but hang on in there if you can it will be worth it.

  • Woah there! If i didn't do raving nutcase my family would walk all over me!! :D

    So hubby is trying to quit again! good one!

    You were stronger when he did smoke! lol

    You have the upper hand now, you talk to him like you would us x x x

    "there there dear just a blip throw the rest away and march on, onwards and upwards !! :D"

    Smile and go make a cuppa, draw a doodle or have a lovely soak x x x x

    I am aiming for the week end, cos i am spending my savings :D

    Going to get some new gym gear!

    What are you doing this week end??

    How much money will you have by then?!

  • Yep Dh gave up when he had man flu;) But he goes on about needing one all the time which then makes me think about them.

    Ohh good on your for spending your savings. I am putting mine into a savings account for my holiday in Ibiza:)

    Ok so i have always been a but mad but i am turning into a complete nutter. They will be commiting me soon i am sure:eek:

  • I am feeling a bit better now talking to you lot. I was so sure i was going to get someone to go get me some cigerettes. I couldnt be bothered to go myself :rolleyes::o

    But i came here and told you lot how i was feeling and now i dont feel as bad. Ohh and I have eaten some salted peanuts. I was so watching what i eat this week too.

    Blimey that craving was a mad one. Took me over completely there for a while.

  • :D me too

    just had half a bag of toffee popcorn!

    but i started my more intense gym regime so one thing at a time eh?

    theres always next week!! :D

    Soooooooooooooooo glad you feel better x x x x x

    You are so worthy of this Jane x x x

    ~Buffy x x

  • I did the davina work out 2 days running and now i hurt so much i have to go up and down the stairs sideways.

    Thanks buffy xx you too.

  • *mwah* Jane x x

    My regime makes me feel like i have been 'AT IT' :rolleyes: for a week non stop! :eek:

    Without the pleasure, or the ability to actualy 'do it!' :p

    ROFL

    It'll get easier *sigh*

  • Thanks for listening. xxx

  • Totaly normal Rob :rolleyes:

    Men don't feel the workout effect because they aren't generaly as athletic as us women :D :o

  • Shut up and get on with it :mad:

    Ooooops soz thought i was somewhere else then :D

  • The only reason i think i feel like this is because my husband has been away on buisness. He came home today and told me he had one this afternoon because there was a problem at the factory. That then put smoking back into my head.

    Ohh i am so mixed up, I feel like i am turning into a raving nutcase.

    Flippy, it's the way you are thinking thats causing you the grief. Because hubby had one you are jealous and thinking you should have the right to have one too. Dont look at it like that. Dont even look at it that you cant ever have another cig. You can. In fact if you want to you could buy 200 and sit dedicatedly smoking them one after the other!! Who's to stop you? But do you CHOOSE to do that? Or CHOOSE not to have one?

    There was a 'click' in my thinking for me around day 6. Had a row with OH. First thoughts were 'Right you t***, 'm off to buy 10 cigs, its your fault, you've wound me up therefore you cant tell me off'

    Then I suddenly realised I would only be 'punishing' myself, letting myselfdown. He hasnt made me quit, I have CHOSEN to do it. Its very strange how much differnce that change in thinking has made to my will power.

    Stay strong Flippy, just tell yourself if you still really really crave tomorrow, you'll buy some. Chances are tomorrow you will have 'forgotten' how bad today was!!

    Here's a hug to keep you going [[[[flippy]]]

    How nice was that, with neither of us stinking of fag smoke? :D

  • Flippy ive got to say this. Ive had cravings just like this one you had last night that get me so bloody mad that i just think its too strong for me to fight. To date ive slipped twice on these exact cravings. I think you are an absolute star for keep pulling yourself through these.

    YOU GO, GIRL ;):D

  • *mwah* Jane x x

    My regime makes me feel like i have been 'AT IT' :rolleyes: for a week non stop! :eek:

    Without the pleasure, or the ability to actualy 'do it!' :p

    ROFL

    It'll get easier *sigh*

    working out always fills me with adrenaline and excitement :) but i am only 21 so i'm probably the baby of the forum :O

    Flippy! no! just remember this way your feeling is nothing to do with whats going on in your life it's all in your head and your no more insane than the next ex-smoker because it's just the last remnants of nicotine in your system clinging on for dear life and hoping your going to lapse

    with that in mind, just know that whatever your decision we're are all still here today, we all know how you feel but we are also going to still be here

    *hugs*

    i really hope your feeling better this morning xx xx xx

  • You lot are great. Thank you for replying and helping me get through this.

    I woke up this morning and i am sooooooooooooooooooooo glad i didnt crave last night. I would have been gutted if i had.

    Today is another day and i can do this, i am sure i can.

    I am off to walk the dogs at lunchtime and going to have sausage and chips while walking along the sand.:)

    Thank you all so much for putting up with my moments of madness xxxx

    Shelly you so right that hug was a sweet smelling one;)

  • Yay Flippy :D *big sloppy kiss n hugs*

    Good morning!!! it's the week end!!! and your bright and ready!

    ~Buffy x x x x x

    Jimi, I'll take you under my wing ;) hehehehe

    Yes gym does all that but what I meant was the pain I am suffering from adductor/abductor :o

    :D

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