I really dont think i can keep doing this. I know you are all here to talk me out of it but its driving me insane. I am sad and havent stopped crying. I really dont think i can carry on anymore. Its not fun, i dont feel good, I actually feel bloody awful.:mad:
Its not even getting easier, its getting harder.
Dont know if i will be here tomorrow............... sorry
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I have made some good friends here and i thank you for that. I cant be bothered to go and get any. I would have to get in the car and drive to tescos.
I am going to have a bath and do some deep breathing.
The only reason i think i feel like this is because my husband has been away on buisness. He came home today and told me he had one this afternoon because there was a problem at the factory. That then put smoking back into my head.
Ohh i am so mixed up, I feel like i am turning into a raving nutcase.
I am feeling a bit better now talking to you lot. I was so sure i was going to get someone to go get me some cigerettes. I couldnt be bothered to go myself :rolleyes:
But i came here and told you lot how i was feeling and now i dont feel as bad. Ohh and I have eaten some salted peanuts. I was so watching what i eat this week too.
Blimey that craving was a mad one. Took me over completely there for a while.
The only reason i think i feel like this is because my husband has been away on buisness. He came home today and told me he had one this afternoon because there was a problem at the factory. That then put smoking back into my head.
Ohh i am so mixed up, I feel like i am turning into a raving nutcase.
Flippy, it's the way you are thinking thats causing you the grief. Because hubby had one you are jealous and thinking you should have the right to have one too. Dont look at it like that. Dont even look at it that you cant ever have another cig. You can. In fact if you want to you could buy 200 and sit dedicatedly smoking them one after the other!! Who's to stop you? But do you CHOOSE to do that? Or CHOOSE not to have one?
There was a 'click' in my thinking for me around day 6. Had a row with OH. First thoughts were 'Right you t***, 'm off to buy 10 cigs, its your fault, you've wound me up therefore you cant tell me off'
Then I suddenly realised I would only be 'punishing' myself, letting myselfdown. He hasnt made me quit, I have CHOSEN to do it. Its very strange how much differnce that change in thinking has made to my will power.
Stay strong Flippy, just tell yourself if you still really really crave tomorrow, you'll buy some. Chances are tomorrow you will have 'forgotten' how bad today was!!
Here's a hug to keep you going [[[[flippy]]]
How nice was that, with neither of us stinking of fag smoke?
Flippy ive got to say this. Ive had cravings just like this one you had last night that get me so bloody mad that i just think its too strong for me to fight. To date ive slipped twice on these exact cravings. I think you are an absolute star for keep pulling yourself through these.
My regime makes me feel like i have been 'AT IT' :rolleyes: for a week non stop! :eek:
Without the pleasure, or the ability to actualy 'do it!'
ROFL
It'll get easier *sigh*
working out always fills me with adrenaline and excitement but i am only 21 so i'm probably the baby of the forum
Flippy! no! just remember this way your feeling is nothing to do with whats going on in your life it's all in your head and your no more insane than the next ex-smoker because it's just the last remnants of nicotine in your system clinging on for dear life and hoping your going to lapse
with that in mind, just know that whatever your decision we're are all still here today, we all know how you feel but we are also going to still be here
*hugs*
i really hope your feeling better this morning xx xx xx
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