Struggling

Hi all. Made day 4 but not without struggle. I had to go back to bed today as just so exhausted. This is where I start to fail as the feelings just begin to wear me down so much. I'm not too bad when the kids are home but I am on my own such a lot during the day its easy to be tempted.

I can't believe I have been to Asda and Morrisons and walked past kiosk without buying. I just hope the determination lasts.

I wish I felt as good as Jimi and Andy. Ruth.

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  • Hi all. Made day 4 but not without struggle. I had to go back to bed today as just so exhausted. This is where I start to fail as the feelings just begin to wear me down so much. I'm not too bad when the kids are home but I am on my own such a lot during the day its easy to be tempted.

    I can't believe I have been to Asda and Morrisons and walked past kiosk without buying. I just hope the determination lasts.

    I wish I felt as good as Jimi and Andy. Ruth.

    hang on in there Ruth, day 4 was my hardest, but it gets better,

    :)

  • Hello Ruth,

    I sympathise with you.... I work from home a lot, and once the little chap is at school, the mind can wonder as it just leaves me and the dog... When I get like that I try to do something ... whether it be putting a wash on ..or a little bit of sorting out....

    If you are free and don't have anything to do around the house might be better to go out. I try to do a lunch time swim if possible etc... or just walk into town rather than driving in to post mail or pick small stuff up.

    Keep yourself going by giving yourself a purpose and tasks to achieve during the day.

    If you are finding yourself watching daytime tele it can be very easy to slip up by feeling down about the time you have wasted etc.....

  • Cheers guys. I am hanging in there - just.

    Tomorrow will be day 5, only 2 to go to the end of the week. I think that will give me a psychological boost only we all know there is such a long way to go but at the end of the day it has got to be done.

    Cigarettes, I am afraid of them, very very afraid. The problem is I can't see myself as a non smoker just a perpetual quitter/failure but perhaps I have never given it enough time.

    Sorry I am rambling. A parent from school said today that I was away with the fairies. She's right.

    Ruth.

  • Hi Ruth,

    I can so emphatize here. I am ending day five today. The twitches for the nicotene are almost absent but the psychological craves are about to drive me over the edge.

  • Ruth you are doing soooooooooooooo well. Please be proud of yourself for getting to were you are.

    I know you feel like you will always struggle but you wont, you just have to stay positive and not let them nasty things beat you.

    xx

  • Hi Flippy, thanks for that. I only came on to calm down as my washing machine has just flooded the kitchen three times and I need my son's judo whites for 7.30am. If ever there was a testing point, this is sure one of them.

    Looking forward to day 5. Too late to get any cigs now anyway. I'll just finish my wine and hopefully I will sleep. I'm going to be up doing these judo whites until God knows when anyway. Talk about tested!!! R x

  • Ohh yep I know what you mean about testing days. But if we can get through them we can get through anything.

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