Hello again, sporadic GBN here and I wanted to say I am into my 2nd month of my stopping smoking journey.
I will admit quickly that I had half a cigarette the other day. I had a pint and a nice lunch, and the desire was too strong, so i had one. After lighting up and taking a few drags COR BLIMEY it tasted FOUL, and my god it stank. I didn't take more than two breaths in before chucking it out. The whole experience felt very alien and wierd to me, something i didn't expect. I didn't 'take the smoke down' as I used to, so i'm sure no damage has been done to my repaired healthy lungs. If it has then so be it, i'll let them repair again.
Unlike most, I haven't thought about it, or craved, too much since i slipped. I don't feel bad about it either, because in a way it has made me realise now it would be very difficult to actually start again. The whole experience of smoking for me has changed unbelieveably so in the last month. I don't think I could do that to myself. The levels of cravings for Nic are now lower than my desire to be smokefree.
I'm not going to let this one cigarette drag me back down into the abyss that is being a smoker. Not since i've come so far.
Hope everyone else is doing ok in their journey.