Third week, getting hard

Day 17 now, still smoke free. Had relatives down at the weekend, they live in Spain. Brought me 400 cigs, never thought I could refuse but I did. Luckily they smoke the same so weren't offended. They even smoked outside.

I must admit I have been finding it hard the past couple of days. I thought things were supposed to get easier.:(

A couple of times I have thought, "just one won't hurt", but I know it will and have resisted. Does everyone think like this in the early days?

I am really proud to be a non smoker now though.:)

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  • Well done for saying no, would have been so tempting aswell and good on them for going outside!!

    It does get easier just keep thinking happy positive thoughts. I have notes all over my desk, things stuck on my monitor at work telling me reasons why i shouldn't smoke!!

    One of the reasons is 'It's pointless' and it really is!!

  • Can anyone help

    Hi Wendyann - not far in front of you - 20 days for me. I know I DON'T want to smoke, but there is this feeling inside that if I had a ciggie I would feel a lot better (not making sense is it). I feel SO miserable, could cry all the time and I don't know why cos I'm nearly 3 weeks and not smoking. I should be elated and feeling great but I'm not. Now here's the question - is it the Champix or were ciggies an emotional crutch for me. I lost my husband eight years ago (I was 37 and he was 43) and have smoked heavily ever since. Now the cigs have gone too... I know its not making sense but I really need to make sense of all this before I end up at the doctors a quivering wreck. Can of you experienced quitters help me out here please.....:(

  • Oh cazbags its a hurdy gurdy time . please dont throw away all that effort. nic is throwing every thing he has at you right now. get through this by imagining hes a real demon trying to drag you back into his evil grip. i find i can handle it better if i have something to fight like nic in my head. better than thinking of it as just cravings if you know what i mean. hope you can make sense of what im trying to say. we are with you.xxx

  • Hi Wendyann - not far in front of you - 20 days for me. I know I DON'T want to smoke, but there is this feeling inside that if I had a ciggie I would feel a lot better (not making sense is it). I feel SO miserable, could cry all the time and I don't know why cos I'm nearly 3 weeks and not smoking. I should be elated and feeling great but I'm not. Now here's the question - is it the Champix or were ciggies an emotional crutch for me. I lost my husband eight years ago (I was 37 and he was 43) and have smoked heavily ever since. Now the cigs have gone too... I know its not making sense but I really need to make sense of all this before I end up at the doctors a quivering wreck. Can of you experienced quitters help me out here please.....:(

    It's a sense of loss! This may sound really odd, but you are greiving for your loss i.e. your loss being cigarettes. They've been in your life for so long that for them to not be there feels really odd.

    When my dad died in October from lung cancer, I cried when I heard the news. That and his funeral are the only times that I wept. I wasn't that close to him, however, I kept feeling that sense of loss, which I only connected to when I have given up smoking. Even though I hardly saw my dad, the thought of never being able to see him again was really strange .

    I thought the same when I gave up smoking. To not be doing something that I had been doing as a normal way of life was really wierd. I felt an emptiness like I'd lost a limb.

    Does that make any sense?

    It will get better and soon you'll be used to it. I still occasionly think about cigarettes but only for a second and soon forget about it.

    Hope you feel better soon!:D

  • Thanks you so much everyone for your replies.

    Hi cazbags, oh gosh I feel so much like you. Why on earth we would feel that a cigarette would make us feel better I don't know. Like you I have been smoking for 30 years. Today is the third anniversary of my grandsons death, he was only 10 weeks old. I'm finding it very hard today. So many times I have nearly gone and had a cigarette but I haven't. I think the ciggies are an emotional crutch. I'm not on Champix, I'm using patches but today I keep thinking mine must have dropped off as I'm craving all the time.:eek:

    This is really really hard isn't it. I have a little grandaughter now and want to be around for her, so we must be really strong. I try to tell myself I am not losing anything by not smoking, I'm gaining freedom. Sometimes I don't believe myself though.lol

    Please try and stay strong, I'm going to try.

    Wendy

  • Thanks you so much everyone for your replies.

    Hi cazbags, oh gosh I feel so much like you. Why on earth we would feel that a cigarette would make us feel better I don't know. Like you I have been smoking for 30 years. Today is the third anniversary of my grandsons death, he was only 10 weeks old. I'm finding it very hard today. So many times I have nearly gone and had a cigarette but I haven't. I think the ciggies are an emotional crutch. I'm not on Champix, I'm using patches but today I keep thinking mine must have dropped off as I'm craving all the time.:eek:

    This is really really hard isn't it. I have a little grandaughter now and want to be around for her, so we must be really strong. I try to tell myself I am not losing anything by not smoking, I'm gaining freedom. Sometimes I don't believe myself though.lol

    Please try and stay strong, I'm going to try.

    Wendy

    Oh Wendy I am so sorry for your loss. A cigarette isn't going to make it any better. We must be strong and keep going. I keep thinking that if I can get through the grief and pain of losing my husband I can get through stopping smoking. Thinking of you and I'll stay strong if you will. We can beat this demon. Take care

  • Oh Wendy I am so sorry for your loss. A cigarette isn't going to make it any better. We must be strong and keep going. I keep thinking that if I can get through the grief and pain of losing my husband I can get through stopping smoking. Thinking of you and I'll stay strong if you will. We can beat this demon. Take care

    It's right, a cigarette will make neither of us feel better. I can't imagine what you must have gone through losing your husband but you must have been very strong to have survived. We will both be strong now. I already feel stronger tonight now. I'm so pleased I didn't cave in.

    We can beat this.

    You take care as well.

  • Wendyanne and Casbags........ you two are both very strong ladies, and I am so sorry for your losses.

    It will get easier definately, but the feelings or loss are normal. Just remember that you have both lost something much more precious than those nasty, smelly, evil very expensive cancer sticks - and you have both survived somehow!!

    Stay stong ladies you will get there

  • Aw wendyann and cazbags I am ever so sorry for your losses :( Arrrgghh I hate this addiction so much! it makes things hard when all we really do when we quit is go back to being our real self, the free one, the healthy, positive one, and yet we've all had to cry, we've all had to feel lost and be miserable at least for some time, and because of what? a pack of cigarettes :mad: God I hate smoke, I HATE cigarettes because to see people suffer so much when quitting, it just isn't fair---

    Ok...done ranting for now :rolleyes:

    HUGS to both of you!

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