I just realised because they were talking about smoking on the TV - it came as quite a shock - today is my four year anniversary! Four years! Bloody hell!
I spent 24 years absolutely convinced that I was just 'one of those people' who was hooked, and that was that. I never thought the day would come that I would (and I mean this sincerely) rather slice my toes off with a rusty razor than light a cigarette ever again.
That isn't to say I never ever think of smoking. Once in a blue moon, I think 'gosh, if I still smoked, I'd be smoking now'. But I don't crave it or want it, not ever any more. I thought I always would.
From the bottom of my heart I wish all of you on the beginning of your journey the strength to ride out those difficult times and keep your eyes on the future. IT DOES GET BETTER. You can retrain your subconscious if you just keep plodding away, one day at a time. And keep posting here - this forum was the saving of me many times.
Best wishes to all my quitting crew too! Happy days!
Merry Christmas to you all.